how long does the anxiety last!?

[nate1020]

I'll try and make this short as possible. In a nut shell I have a rare disease that causes a lot of issues like ulcerative colitis being one of the serious ones. but I have been taking pain meds for the last 4 months pretty heavy bc I have had a bad flare up that almost killed me back in december. I hate even thinking of the pain I was in at that time! But now I am getting better (got health insurance) so things are really improving and no more quick fixes now. I was taking about 8 to 9 hydrocodone 10's a day and when my script ran out I just went through the phone calling people to get hold of anything I could until my re fill. It has gotten way to stressful and I noticed the days I don't take for a while I am not hurting or its manageable so I know I need to quit before I cause more issues. Two days ago I only took 2 at lunch time and yesterday I took 1 at lunch  they were 10's. Now I am at over 24 hours without anything at all and the w/d isnt to bad I guess because I gradually went down to just a few each day bc I ran out and had to find those. Its been runny nose/watery eyes/yawning/tired/slight stomach cramps and loss of appetite. But what I can not stand is the anxiety! I feel like I am going through a bad break up or I just lost my best friend. I wanna freak out and cry! I cannot help but dwell on it and pills are the only thing on my mind. I am doing good with not taking bc I had the opportunity to get a bunch today and I turned it down bc I really wanna get past this and be that person I once was who did not care when I ran out of pills. I guess after 3 years of being on and off so much medication it was bound to be a habit at some point. But I know I do not want them any more I am ready to be free of this mess I just want to see light from this anxiety very soon bc I don't know how much more of it I can take!

[Pjtwenty]

Welcome!  
Day 3-4 are typically the worst. For me the mental anguish of the first 24hrs was always the hardest.
You are making a good decision. Addiction only gets worse. Eventually you will need 15, 20+ pills a day just to feel normal.
Emotions are gonna be all over the place. Try try try to focus on positive things in your life. How my h stronger of a person you will be after breaking free of this. Try and get outside and walk interact with people. You will not want to and you will believe that Darkness will never leave you but it will!
Hope this helps. Hang in there!

[nate1020]

Yeah I had a feeling it would not be over as soon as I hoped lol. Last night was very hard trying to sleep my legs would not stop moving and my stomach kept cramping up. Once I got to sleep I dreamed of taking pills lol so needless to say I woke up with that anxiety and crazy want for one. I'm going to push through and see what happens though! All we can do! Just wish the minutes did not feel like hours and I could sleep away the day.

[Twist00]

Hi, I am new here and I am on a 11 day clean detox, so maybe I can help a little bit. I was taking 10/325s up to 6-8 times per day, for about 8 months. I would say the worst day (sadly coming up..) is going to be day 3. If you can survive day 3, I found that everything started to lessen slightly.

Except for me, I now have extreme lower back pain, which is killing me. All I can is if I can do this without giving up, you can do.