Are you still using? I am really confused.
Nope. 10 days today. Well, mostly. No 30's but I have smoked a little weed to knock the edge off. I know, I know.
I think this post is off topic. Perhaps it belongs in the Social forum.
I'm sorry I didn't realize. My other post just got so long I started a new one. It is really not exactly I don't think anyway. I'm just venting about what is going on with me. The part at the end about getting my stuff together is about keeping off the pills before they kill me and how hard it is staying away when I got so much else going on. I should have been more specific.
Keep up the GOOD work!!
Its good to have people there for you...
Yes, the people here are great. I wouldn't have made it this long without you guys!
How are you doing Kristi? Still hanging in there?
Pretty much. I backslid a little but at least not on my DOC. Today is my birthday and I'm a little worried that I will wanna party. I may just sit here by myself all day because I am proud of myself and don't wanna screw it up now.
What do you mean that backslid?
I did a few xanax I found. I wish I hadn't. I'm not proud but what's done is done. I just gotta do better today.
You need to get everything out of the house to avoid the temptation. You are setting yourself up for failure. You need to set yourself up for success!!!
How many different pills do you have laying around? You gotta get rid of ALL pills. I hope you start taking this addiction serious kristi cuz there is no happy ending, death awaits us.
That was the last of them. I wouldn't even know where to get one now. I am very serious. I know this is going to kill me. I know. I had a weak moment after several days of hell and I am not proud but please don't doubt my sincerity. I WANT this.
Then fight for it! It is going to take a lot of work. Remember..you ARE worth it!!!
I keep telling myself that. I keep telling myself my girl is worth it even if I think I'm not some days. It's a b*tch but I gotta keep trying!