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[MorphineMoreKeen]

Hi i've posted in the addiction forum aswell but i'd like to know anything from here aswell hope you can help

hi im Melisa im 16 years old and i smoke weed everyday with one of my friends or friends and sometimes on my own i've been smoking this substance since I was 14 I am curious of what would happen if I was to continue smoking skunk i smoke thai as well is thai harmless?

Anyway I've noticed some changes in me BIG changes I've stopped functioning how I used to I mean like I don't speak much half of the day i'm not speaking or doing anything i hate doing the dishes I havn't done washing up in 2 years my friends and family think i'm really really lazy my motivation levels have hit rock bottom my social state is so bad I find it substantially hard to make a simple conversation with somebody my sleep is horrendous I sleep after 2-3days of staying up night and day sometimes I lack hygiene I break out in anger for no reason and have major attitude but I don't mean to be like that really its just sillyness when it happens I do self harm but this is only between me and you guys. And yeah I feel sometimes I need to die and there are days when im so scared to die that confuses me and then  
my friends said everytime I talk i switch subject really quick and most of the time I find it REALLY REALLY hard to cry or laugh and theres moments when i'm about to cry out of the bloo and I laugh at really weird things and just laugh just like that with no connections. Lets just say in all I really can't look after my self and i've only just realized these things and as far as I know ever since I was a little little girl all I wanted to do is hurt myself which is weird i've always caused harm to myself but really don't know why so if you guys could help me out for why this is that would be really swell ;)

[darlenedaisy]

Hi,

In terms of pot, when I was smoking it years ago, I also experienced lack of energy and motivation.

To be honest, I think what is happening in your life is a big deal, you should not have to suffer like that, life can be better.
I would suggest you reach out for help, it is too difficult to try to fix this on your own.

I used to self-harm as well, and have decided an honest answere is the best thing right now. For me, it was to punish myself, as my self hatred ran deep. I suspect it was also related to the fact that I was sexually abused.

By getting help, you can get your life on track, my worry is that you will keep sliding downhill, and your situation will get worse.

You are stronger than you know, dont ever give up, you are worth it, and it CAN get better. Keep fighting, you deserve a good life.

I am here for you if you ever need to talk.
You can also private message me if you feel more comfortable with that.
I do understand.

Darlenedaisy

[lindahand]

They can't tell if you are bipolar until you are off the substances. It is very common for people with bipolar disorder or another psychiatric illness to self medicate with booze, pot, or hard drugs. It is also very common for people on drugs to manifest the symptoms of bipolar that then go away once they are off drugs.

You can beat this addiction but you are probably going to need to tell your parent's and go into detox. This isn't something you can do alone anymore. The good thing though is in reaching out for help you are giving yourself a second chance. You are 16. There is still time to catch up in school and go to college and be whatever it is you want to be. I know you probably don't believe me right now, but it is true. If you get cleaned up - your life will get better. It will still be tough. That is just the way life is, but it won't be impossible. You will find things you enjoy. You will make new friends.

And the doctors at detox will be able to help you with any other illnesses you have. Bipolar disorder is very treatable. People with bipolar disorder are doctor's and teachers and lawyers, and massage therapists, and pretty much any other career you can think of.

You have a decision to make and it is going to take all your guts to do it. You have to tell someone and get the help you need, otherwise things will just get worse. A good place to start is with your family doctor. They can then explain things to your parent's so you don't have to tell them directly.

Good luck.

[ILADVOCATE]

  Definitely not harmless but its effects vary from person to person. However if a person has a psychiatric disability it can create a more rapid onset as well as make it more difficult to treat. The best thing to do is obtain a referral to a psychiatrist who can see if there are further concerns it is setting off which are treatable as well. Also note sometimes this can be a form of self medication for a psychiatric disability. Some of what you are describing potentially sounds like it could be bipolar. However, only a psychiatrist could be able to understand in full what was happening but if they do diagnose any psychiatric disability dual recovery groups for a person with a psychiatric disability and substance abuse concern can be of help. Regardless what you are describing sounds of concern so it would be worthwhile to have a counselor refer you to a psychiatrist so they could see what could be done from there.