need some help....

[raquelplus2]

i no what bi polar diesease is and lately ive been questioning myself if i have that...or im just going nuts..not sure...i feel like in my heart my mind my everything i need something to control my anger my rage and my no patience...im a single mom of 3 ages 4 3 and 6 mnths theyr dad left us last july...so idk if its all the stress i have and built up anger n lil by lil its comeing out...when im with my bf i feel happy content relaxed...wen im off work alone with my kids im ok then once they start actn up fightn getnn into evrythng not listening to me and thats been a big problem i cant control them anymore and its drivn me crazy...ive tried evrythng.i feel like given up i feel like i cant control them and i feel like i cant do it anymore at all.i feel like im going crazy. and i feel like i need something to control my anger n rage because i dont have self control anymore i try n i cry brcause i cant.for instance earlier today i was makn chillie cheese dogs n BAMMM a huge bang i see my 2 yr old usn alil kid chair to get my keys dangling from my rod iron clock it fell out the wall broke i flipped out took him to his room n was heated i got the lil chair n threw it n it broke n they got scared crying n it wasnt a pretty picture im not like that its not me..n i for some reason i ran into the frigde got my bfs beer locked myself in the br and drank it...thats not me i dont drink?? idk i really feel like i need meds or help or something...any advice??

[raquelplus2]

ya ive thought bout therapy i just dont have time and no sitter n that makes it more worse. its been hard the with kids...and thanks guys i no people out there in similar situations and can could give me advice on how to handle n what to do. its like i snap at everything i feel like i cant even control myself i yell instead of talkn now n its like i see myself doing wrong being mean but i cant control it i cant stop it  idk how to explain that...

[sweetie56]

I know it seems like you are going crazy been there done that. My ex left me with 6 kids. i was angry and everything set me off. But if you go to a psychiatrist they can help and therapy does do wonders. I'm dealing with a few issues rite now to i'm back in therapy. Hang in there and i'm here if you need to talk. also remember you need to take a break somtimes from everything and have alone time. and hang out with your friends without bf and kids and anything that stresses you and go home and be a better a calmer person. it does help. I couldn't go out had no friends ex wouldn't let me have none.  and i married my 2nd husband on the rebond and because i didn't want to be alone so be careful of that to.

[ILADVOCATE]

Extreme outbursts of anger with loss of self control can be part of bipolar but there are other criteria as well. A psychiatrist would have to provide a specific diagnosis but it would be worth speaking to one. In the meantime keep a mood tracker and print out the results for the psychiatrist when you see them. I would avoid drinking for any reason as that can make any issues of bipolar worse. If there are any negative interactions between you and your children, regardless of cause it would be helpful to go to family therapy to find out appropriate ways to address this. Talk therapy can be helpful for anyone and if bipolar is diagnosed is needed in addition to taking medication.