Seeing as my new jobs medicare won't kick in 'till the first, and I'm a bit aprehensive about going to talk to a doctor about this, I figure I'd ask here.
Everywhere I've looked I've not been able to find anything about obsession being a part of bipolar disorder, but I really don't know what else it could be. My mind races constantly, to the point where I actually get tired. Eventually I focus on one thought. Put EVERYTHING into that one thought. The obssession will last a few days, or a few weeks, or 3 years.
It started about 4 years ago with a simple computer game. I found that it helped stop the racing, as long as I was intently focused on the game. Eventually the game BECAME my life. I'd go to school, think about the game all day, get home and stay on the computer till I fell asleep. I figured I was just addicted to the game, whatever. It happens. Well, as I got older my intrests matured too.
For about 2 months I decided I wanted this truck. Not wanted. NEEDED. If I had the truck, I'd be cool man! I had it all planned out. I'd graduate from high school and go stright to the local pen to start work as a prison guard, and save up for that truck! It was just like the computer game. I'd come home and sit down and just think of ways I could make money to get this truck, or get on the computer and look up things about this truck. Spend hours on the companys website, re-custimzing this truck.
In one of my searches into ways to make money, I found real estate. I was going to be a landlord! I'd spend HOURS at Books-A-Million, reading about the best ways to do this and that. Of course at this point, I'd forgotten ALL about the truck.
This was about the time I noticed my mood swings. For a couple of days I'd realized I was very happy, on top of the world. I could do ANYTHING. Then I'd wake up the next morning, and be in a completly different state of mind. I'd constantly dwell on the point of life, and just be in a ****** mood untill I became manic, for no reason.
Eventually my obsessions became a bit more 18 year-old-guy-like. A friend talked me into going to the gym with him one day. I was hooked. I bought a TON of books on fitness, learned everything I could about it. It was all I could think about. I went from 6'4 almost 320 pounds, to 6'4 235 pounds in a little under 6 months.
This was about the time I started my job at the prison, working 12 hours for four days, and then off for four days. That just made the thoughts of "Why" worse. What's the point of working 12 hours a day, doing nothing but eat, sleep, and work, just so you can enjoy the "little moments."
I managed to cope with it pretty well untill here recently. I discovered females (I never had time before this, I was always obsessed about something else). It seems like every four days off, I'm obsessing over a different girl. The latest one is always the best thing since sliced bread. None of them knew that I constantly thought about them. We're just friends. But I can't get it off my mind. I go from manic to depressed daily here lately, and it's driving me insane.
Anyways...after my life story, I guess I'll get to my question(s). >_>. Does anyone know if bipolar medication would help at all with this? Is it possible it's bipolar along with something else? OCD sounds like the most logical choice, but every symptom of OCD seems to have very little to do with obsession, and more about the compulsiveness.
Thanks in advance,
Woody.