Micro Califications

[Bunny711]

To all the ladies on this post.  I cannot get to it as it is filled.  I wanted to give you my experience.  I too had my 3rd mammogram on 10/24, I am 40 years old. I was told to come back as they found some funny, but not to worry.  (Easy for them to say). Went for the second on  11/01/2006, I knew something was wrong, call it woman's intuition. Turns out its calcium microcalifications.  Never heard of it before this.  Radiologists advised biopsy within a month.  However where mind is located, I cannot do a needle.  Well turns out it took quite a long time for my doctor to call.  I did not wait for him. I found my own surgeon went to them, they advised this is very very common.  Changes are good that they are bengin.  Anyhow, made my surgery appointment for 11/13/2006.  I am telling you this because DO NOT WAIT FOR YOUR DOCTORS, they look at it as something not as urgent.  YOu really realize what statistic you are to them and not a human being.  I finally received a call from my doctor's nurse no less, to tell me what surgeon to go to all after I made the appointment by myself.  YOU HAVE TO BE YOUR OWN ADVOCATE.  DO NOT WAIT FOR YOUR DOCTORS TO TELL YOU WHO TO GO TO.  Its scary, frigthening overwelming, and they don't get it sometimes.  Everyone is in my prayers.  I will hear my results after the biopsy which is scaring me.  Additionally I am getting is all removed.  I would rather do it that way, then have to go back for another should the result me malignant.  I was advised even if it is, it is in such early early early stages, guarantee to be fine with proper treatment.

[CCF-RN,MSN-rf]

Dear bunny711:  Thanks for your post.  We wish you well.

[carme]

You certainly have the right attitude...you go for it girl!
I will be praying for you too. Don't ever give up the fight and don't ever stop being that ADVOCATE! We're all gonna win this one someday.
Carme

[Bunny711]

MOST DEFINITELY, WE HAVE TO FIGHT....ITS CRAZY, AND I tell you, three weeks ago, never heard of it.  Now...there is no stopping us!!!!  You are all in my prayers too!!!!!  Thank you.

[boninclyde]

Similar situation happened to me. Found lump Saturday, went to OBGYN Monday morning. They told me it was nothing but would schedule me an appoinment for a mamo. Well Wednesday evening came and no appointment. I got mad at them and told them it may not be important to them but it was to me and that I would find another doctor. Called my PCP he got me in on Thursday morning and on Friday I had mamo, ultrasound and talked ith the surgeon at a breast caner center. The breast cancer centers are nice because they usually do everything in on office. Mine was cancer. I did call my OBGYN back to let him know it was not NOTHING.

[laure113]

I have to wait for my second biopsy due to not being healed from my previous one. Dec 6th is the date and I am having one hell of a time today. I would like to scream and cry. I hate this roller coaster. Hate it. I realize, a very good percentage comes back benign. My last one was, but it doesn't seem to make any difference. I'm still mad and very worried that I even have to do this again. Last one was several weekes ago. I can hardly contain my tears. Having to duck into the bathroom at work so I wont be seen. That's all. Had to say this to someone. I know you all understand. You're all in my  prayers.
Lauren

[cyn17]

During this time of waiting, you may want to do something nice for yourself like getting your hair done, a manicure, massage...something! You need something light and frivolous to balance out the daily stress. Keep the faith!

[contentedsammy]

Hi everyone
I too have been through all of this, waiting on my doctor who just walked out of the room brushing it off as nothing while i was still trying to ask a question. So I had to go through the back door and see another doctor that does pap tests and asked if she could refer me to a breast specialist out of town and she agreed with me with the two different test results from the mammo and ultrasound (she was great and couldnt beleive that it was such a relief to talk to her while she explained it to me).It is sad when the doctors treat us less than human and that we seem paranoid about it and brush us off as though it was nothing.
Not a good feeling and makes the battle a little harder to fight.
Im not saying all doctors are bad but there are a certain few that make it tough for everyone. I am still awaiting my appointment for the specialist and this has all been going on since June.(I am from Canada so we dont have the choice to change doctors as easily (small town and lack of doctors makes it more difficult)And I have the opinion that if it turns out to be something then my doctor will hear about it and it wont be nice. But good luck to all other woman out there and hope that there doctors are much better than mine.
Your right you are your own advocate and if we dont look after ourselves who else will.
Hoping everyone has results back as B9 and those who dont my wishes to out too you to be strong and hang in there.

[laure113]

Thanks, Cyn17, I will try and make myself do something nice. Some days are better than others. Today, is not one of them.

I also understand how insensitive doctors can be. God forbid it happened to them or a loved one. Like we should just be good little patients and wait our turn for the few minutes we are alloted. I also realize, all doctors are not like this. I worked for one of the exceptions. My doctor said I can't let every little thing bother me!!! Since when is waiting to hear if you have cancer a little thing? I hear you, Contentedsammy! We have to be our own advocates. Who else is there in this web of HMO's and socialized medicine?

[japdip]

Just thought I would share my experience and it is quite different it seems. I had a mammogram on a Monday @ 8:00am; I was called by my physician at 10:55am that day. Picked up my films the next morning (Tues.) and met with the surgeon the next morning (Wed.) at 8:45. Surgery (excisional biopsy) was the following Wed. morning. I rec'd a call from the surgeon on Friday with the diagnosis. I can only wish that everyone could be seen, tested, etc. at such a rapid pace. I would imagine that the waiting is the worst. Best Wishes to All.

[Bunny711]

Hi:

I was reading the previous post, and you stood out of the crowd.  I feel for you, having to go through this twice.  I cannot imagine, as I said I never knew this could happen and now this board has educated me more then my doctor's can every do.  

You will be fine..........and to everyone else we will all be fine.  "God brings you to it, he will bring you through it".

Its not easy to stay CALM believe I know, three weeks ago, I felt fine, now I'm so paranoid, it isn't funny.

And ladie, yes be your own advocate.......as these doctors mean well, but are ver insensitive to us as HUMAN BEINGS.......shame but thats part of life.

To the lady in Canada:  I wish you all the best and to everyone of course.

[laure113]

Thank you. I never knew about any of this until 1 month ago. Great way to get an education. Today's a better day. I hope I am all cryed out. That quote about God is a very special one to me. Funny how you mentioned it. What's going on with you?

[Bunny711]

I'm happy to hear today is a better day for you...me too, seems as if I'm cried out a bit myself.  Went for pre-op yesterday, go in on Monday for surgery, I am having the whole thing removed as I said.  The wire goes in as its so small.  My doctors seemed to think everything will be fine, however I asked them what the worst would be, and they said maybe going back in to scraped around.  (which I'm not thrilled about), and then local radiation.........but they said they do not think it will be needed.  We will see....You know sometimes "bad things happen for a good reason"..also, this situation as painful, stressful, emotional it can be it is saving our lives, why us is what I say sometimes, but like that saying I say about god is so true Laure, believe me, keep the faith.........we don't have a choice, we have our lives to live.........its been a rough year and 1/2 for me and I just keep getting hit with things, but i have to believe its all for the better, even though I may end up a little qwacked over it  ;o)........please keep me posted on your situation.....smile a little bit, you never know who you will make smile when you do!!!!

[laure113]

I see we're in a similar mind set, pertaing to faith. I believe nothing happens by mistake. The irony of it all, is that I was praying to be more connected to God. This is not quite how I wanted it to happen but this is the way it has been presented. I am keeping the faith. I'm glad you are too. This way, we are never alone. This site has helped me a lot. The 13th is pretty soon. I'm glad for you that the waiting is winding down. You're in my prayers.
Thanks, again, for writing. It brought a smile to my face. Hope you have a good day.

[Bunny711]

I'm so happy I can make you smile, it brought a tear to my eyes.  We have nothing without faith. Tragedy struck my family last year,(lost my mom suddenly) and I could not find anything to make me happy. I did however make a promise to god, if this should come out o.k., I promised I will try and be as happy as can be.....I know he sees me sad, and this only makes me stronger.....I agree not the best way to become closer, but its o.k. too.  Thank you for you thoughts and praygers, and you too and everyone will be in mine.  Please keep me posted on your progress also, and I too will with everyone. The more we learn the more we can do.

[Bunny711]

You did exactly what is the right thing, stick up for yourself and stay strong.......You are in my prayers as everyone else is.

[sue-aloo]

I had the surgery a few years ago.  The hardest part is the needle location, but it isn't the worst thing in the world!  I was my own advocate too, and had to find my own surgeon as that my doctor didn't even have the results of my mammo before I received the letter from the radiologist...Then it took my doctor forever to get back to me.  Like you said, you have to advocate for yourself. Thank goodness all was benign and I followed up six months later. I also feel your pain with your loss.  When I was 33 (I will be forty on Sunday!) I lost both my parents suddenly 4 months apart.  I was devestated to say the least and at times I am still devastated.  Two years later at age 35 I get the bad mammo.  It wa then that I realized that I actually did want to live!  After my parents died it was like I died too.  But the mammogram woke me up to realize that I was still alive and, darn it, I better live it!  Maybe that was my lesson?  Since then I have married and just adopted a little girl from China!  Now I am going for my 40 year old mammo.  I am terrified about going through that whole ordeal again. I totally belive in that if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.  My other saying that helped me is, "This, too, shall pass.   Please keep me in your prayers as I will all of you. THANKS FOR LISTENING!

[Ladymusical]

Hi Everyone:
I am off to meet with the surgeon with my list of questions in tow.  He was a referral from my ob gyn. I don't know if I should go up to Boston for the stereotactic or should have it in Plymouth(much smaller hospital).  Plus it will be several weeks before they can do the procedure. Thank you to everyone for your support.  I was on a different thread, but that has been closed, however I recognize a few of the names from the other microcalcification thread. I wish that we had access to quicker care. It is much too scary with all the delays. Hard to believe as of little more than a week ago I never had even heard of microcalcifications. My prayers are with you all.

[Bunny711]

You brought tears to my eyes.  Thank you for your story.  I say this too now.  I want to live..I've been walking around for the last year and 1/2 sad at everything, think about holidays and say how can I possibly enjoy them without my "core" in it, my mom, was an angel, and she hasn't been in peace since she lied down one night, healthy so we thought, never to awake, and I can't get over it and they say, they cannot rest until we are at peace with the loss, its very difficult..but this truly is an awakening, I know she is looking down saying you better BE HAPPY.  I am the only girl out of 2 brothers and our bond was priceless, I was very lucky that god gave me a wonderful mother.  I am too 40 now, lost her before my 39th birthday.  I feel for you, for what you must of went through.....2 parents, now look you are happy with a beautiful daughter.  I am divorced, wished I had children but   it didn't work that way, always think about adopting.........Again, thank you for your story, is was priceless.........and I like that statement too.........

Can't wait until this ordeal will hopefully be over..we are lucky you know, to catch this at this age.......it is saving our lives........GOD BLESS

[Bunny711]

Hi:
Good luck to you.....yes I was reading the other thread, and could not get in, thats why I started this one, to let everyone know get your own suergon if your doctor doesn't call back.......but good luck to you.

I don't think the hospital size may make a difference as long as the suregon is good.  I am curious as to why a few weeks, before getting this done?  Keep me posted.

[Bunny711]

Thank you...thats why I started this, didnt' know anything about this thing, and then I went at it with full force.  Did not like the fact that my doctor could not call me back right away, meaning within 24 hours, meanwhile the radiologist told me the day of my 2nd mammo, that she was calling him right away. And to make matter worse he had his nurse call me 4 DAYS LATER, after I met with the suergon and after I made my biopsy..what nerve.....I'm very upset with him.....but as I said we are a # not human.........But thank you for you kind words....and you and everyone else is in my prayers as well.

[laure113]

I feel pretty good again today. I'm trying not to concentrate on the other shoe dropping. (talk to me in Dec. and it will probably be different) Also, just communicating with you and reading the posts makes me feel "part of". Not that I want to be, but I see I am in very good company. It also feels good to pray for others and I am very grateful I am in a place that I can. I wasn't always like this. Your letter made me tear up! And it's all about gratitude. If complete strangers can help each other, well, what a wonderful and comforting thing. I hope your day is filled with serenity.
Lauren

[Bunny711]

Lauren:

I'm so happy you are having another good day.  YOu know this site, has helped me too in so many ways. I'm actually laughing today..surprisingly.....The suregons office called to confirm my time, and we were joking to the point where the nurse was laughing so much.  She said "this is a good thing Elaina", meaning the biopsy and that it has been found so early on. I said I KNOW BELIEVE ME.  I feel for you for having to go through it yet again....but I would love to promise you all will be o.k.......the waiting isn't fun at all.........Keep your spirits up.  The more positive you are, your body will feel it, and that can only be a good thing, as hard as it sounds!!!

I agree about praying for others, so true, in this crazy insane world we live in there are still wonderful humain beings who are the same, have feelings and care, the way god wants it!!!!  Thats nice to know.

May you day too be filled with serenity also.

[laure113]

I'm glad you're laughing, Elaina! Your advise is good and right now, at this minute, everything IS okay. Thanks for sharing that message with me. It makes total sense that keeping my spirits up
affects the rest of me. I will promise to keep this in mind. I know I already know this, but it's not always easy to practice it. Seeing you do it, has inspired me. Thanks you!!

[Bunny711]

I know its not easy, but try as hard as you can ever try!!!!  Its good for you...believe me........I get upset alot, thank god for work in alot of ways you know........keeps you mind off of things!!!!  You are in my prayers.........like I said "keep smiling" even if you want to cry!!!!!

[laure113]

If I were sitting home, I would be way more depressed. Work helps, even if I am online writing! You really sound like me. I will promise to try the hardest I have ever tried. I think making this promise to someone in a similar situation will be very helpful. I'm always checking back, so write whenever you want. I'm very grateful right now.

[Bunny711]

Cannot agree with you more..Work indeed helps,true.  Yes we do sound quite alot alike.....funny in this big wide world how things happen. I will take you up on the Promise...try you'll see it will do wonders for you....I'm can promis you that.  And I will write as much as I can.....I will write tomorrow and I will come back on post-surgery!!  You will be in my prayers..

SMILE ITS A BEAUTIFUL DAY!!!

[laure113]

You've got a deal! You're in my prayers too and will remain. And...I am smiling as I type. It is a beautiful day and I feel uplifted. Thanks!

[sue-aloo]

Please let me be a part of your group!  Today was not a good day for me, but I am hoping tomorrow will be better!  Blessings to all of us and I will also try tomorrow to smile too!

[laure113]

The more the merrier! I just re read your previous post. You have a lot on your plate. When is your mammo? I lost my father a long time ago and the anniversary of his death was last Sunday. It still feels sad. He just tuned 46. Sorry for your loss. I hope your family brings you a lot of comfort. My son does. "This too, shall pass". BIG ONE! I was thinking about that, too. It all passes. Good and bad. I have to keep that in mind. I'm grateful I have a God in my life. I didn't always. Spent years searching. Glad  you wrote! Crummy circumstances, but we need each other to get through this. You're in my prayers.
Lauren

[Bunny711]

Hi ladies:

I hope you ladie are smiling today, it another beautiful day!!!!  Just keep the faith.............I'm so sorry to hear about your dad Lauren.......its seem as if the people that get hit hard, continue to get tested with their faith and lives, why I don't know, but I guess  "god gives you what he thinks you can handle"...I mean why else to bad things happen to good people?  It can only mean GOOD things in the end!!!!

Ladies, keep you spirits up always, even if you don't want to, SMILE.....beleive me it makes you feel better!!!!

All in my prayers!!!!!

[Bunny711]

THOUGHT YOU LADIES MIGHT ENJOY THIS UPLIFT: (ESPECIALLY #10)
1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to
be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't
like you. (but who wouldn't like you???)
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from
it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take another
look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received.  Forget about the
rude remarks.

[laure113]

Morning! So glad to find you here. Okay, I need an attitude adjustment and quick! I started smiling...still am, after I read
your posts. Have to admit, #10 made me want to cry, but not in a bad way. It is a beautiful day and I feel myself slowly pulling out of the morning funk. You really think good things come in the end? I guess it's what we take from each experience and what we do with it. I'm trying to walk with dignity and not be a blithering mess. So far, so good!

[laure113]

I forget to say, I hope you are doing something nice for yourself this weekend (every day). What time is your appt on Monday?

[Bunny711]

Well helloe, I'M SO HAPPY THAT TODAY IS ANOTHER GOOD DAY FOR YOU..I like 310 too.  

YES, I believe I really believe good things come in the end, why do we get tested the way we do?  Because god knows we can handle it........I have to believe that, POSITIVE.

Funny I was reading the other posts and back in Oct you mentioned. I don't look sick, and I'm having good hair days.  SO AM I...too funny.  But I wanted to say, We are not sick, it is a bad cell/tissues in or bodies that we need to ride off.  I lady at work as asking  me about this and  she said "Well you certainly look very healthy"  And my cousin said the same thing.  I wanted to SCREAM I AM.........its just a negative thing in our bodies we most rid of.....

This weekend I will just  take easy, and relax go about my business and get this thing over with....and HOPEFULLY a week from now I will know my results and god forbid it comes back magligant, its STILL GOOD, we caught it in time. Hope you are good and you too do something nice for yourself, enjoy.  I know you are going to be FINE.............believe me you are!!!!

[Bunny711]

I'm sorry for all my misspellings, its that I'm typing so fast and not reading ;o).......

Oh and GIRL, you walk with DIGNITY always walk with dignity, and yes you are right, its what we learn from these experiences, we either become negative, which I will say I have been alot since my mom died, but alot of times I haven't, but if we take the REASONS for these things and try to make sense of them, and know "everything happens for a reason", we come out of it better people!!!

[laure113]

Funny, I was thinking about my hair again, this morning. I haven't always had such nice hair. It's the flat iron! That's my fear, one of them anyway...losing it. There's an O'Henry story where a wife sells her beautiful hair for a chain for her husbands pocket watch and he sells his watch for combs for her hair. Get my drift? Enough of that. I suppose God doesn't give us more than we can handle and again, it's a way to lean on that faith and gather from the faith of others. There are no why's to ask. It just is and that's that. You really amaze me. You have such a terrific outlook. I hope you rub off on me!
Just read your other post. Didn't notice any misspellings. There is a line that says "Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake". So whatever the reason, I need to accept it. Hey, maybe I will finally grow up! And, I chose to believe you. I will be okay and so will you.

[Bunny711]

I get your story....Don't think sooooo far in advance, you are worrying about things that are not present right now... Worst case right now would be radiation, you don't loose your hair at all... I guess its the UNKNOWN we are afraid of, but we will get ourselves SICK if we worry too much about the possible future when we are not living in the present.  Yesterday is gone, tomorrow isn't here yet, so live for today!!!!  and yes its another beautiful day.......I love it!!!

I always thought of that too, and say well shoot, I can have short, long, curly, straight, blond, black, brown pink hair while doing it, when do you get a chance to play with that stuff...but believe I don't want to!!!!

Like I said you will be fine.....I know you will........I like that saying you put in.....its so true though...........have to stay positive no other way to be.............
no mispellings, our eyes must be the same too   ;o)

[Bunny711]

How did you make out at the surgeons?

[laure113]

Hopefully, worse case, radiation and that is ahead of myself. Today, I want to laugh. Show the world...and me, I can handle this. Today, I am okay. There is nothing wrong with me. I'm having Chinese food for dinner and I just might eat a pint of ice-cream!
Today is all we have. I'm big into the one day at a time deal. It took me years to get the hang of it but it really does work, if I allow myself. It only makes sense. I don't want to waste today about something I have no control over. Okay, I'm smiling.

[Bunny711]

Good, good I LOVE your attitdue.......you have to remebmer we are very very lucky.........and guess wahat I'm gonn have chinese food to, and not bland chicken with the steamed vegetables, I'm talking the good stuff ;o).............yes today is a good day!!!!  Keep it up and you will be breezing through this all, and it will be over before you know it!!!!!! Take the experience and engulf it, and gain that wisdom we will get out of it...................and BE HAPPY!!!!

[laure113]

Oh, yeah, the good stuff! I do try and maintain my weight but shoot, I can't worry about everything, everyday, can I? I live in California and I should take advantage of my beautiful surroundings. I do wish for snow (former New Yorker) but can't really complain about the sun. I'm going to walk slow and look around. My Christmas cactus is in bloom, I can see the harbor form my window and life is good today. Boy, is this a change from when I woke up! Writing back and forth has certainly helped.