I am not on chemotherapy but I have to take Neupogen 2x/week at 480mcg a shot. The bone pain I have is horrible, the weirdest pain I have ever had before. My bone marrow gets so swollen that I can actually feel my heart beat in my femur, pelvis and ribs. That happens if I get up too fast, or bend over. On top of that I have the "bone aches and sharp zings" of pain for a day and a half after a shot. The first night I woke up shaking, because of the pain my body was experiencing. My muscles ache too, I can not even put a purse on my shoulder without pain. My problem is I asked my doctor if I could have pain meds for the pain. (I go to an accelerated nursing school and I can not be in bed 3 days a week from pain, plus chronic pain makes you nuts and depressed) He gave me some vicodin and it helps. I take 1-2 the day of the shot and maybe one the day after. It took me over a month to use 30 vicodin and now he is saying he wants to stop the vicodin. He does not believe that neupogen could cause this debilitating pain. He says I need to be careful with the vicodin. He has me totally embarrassed to ask for pain meds. He is acting like I am an addict or something. My mother even told him the kind of pain I am in and he said that I needs to just get through the pain. My question is, what do I do? Who do I talk? He diagnosed me with cyclic neutropenia and now I have to take the shots. And he wont even help with the pain. Also, this is the first time with vicodin or pain meds. I have not history of addiction of any kind. I have tried 5 Advil at a time, clariton, and benadril for the inflammation, not help. I just do not want to be in pain anymore, help!?