I am scared stiff

[Geni5301]

In 1999 I had an abnormal pap smear, I had a colposcopy done and it turned out to be nothing. A few pap smears after that were normal. I then had 2 kids and I have high risk pregnancies so I saw the doctor so much I didn't have a  pap smear in maybe, 4 years! I knew I was way over due and I was worried. I finally went and wouldn't you know, it was abnormal and I have to have another colposcopy done. I did have the HPV test done and when the nurse called to tell me I needed further testing, i asked her if the HPV test came back positive and she told me that when pap smears come back like this they don't even test for hpv?? Wouldn't they test as that may be what it is? Or do they already know its something much worse? I have no symtoms of anything, no abnormal bleeding or spotting. No change at all aside from once in a while painful urination, but that is very rare. I do have lower back pain thats been bugging me. I was reading the internet sites and I am beyond scared that I have some type of cancer, My appointment is on the 24th of this month but mentally I can't handle it. I am almost to scared to go to it. I am 33 and everyone story I have read of this happening and being cancer they are all around my age. I have 3 kids, I am so scared I can't function. It is taking over my life and its horrible. Has anyone else been through this?
Mental breakdown

[Pum]

Sorry, one more comment. In this country, if you have a history of normal smears (and you do) then we only get tested every 3 years so you were only 1 year late.

[Pum]

It could be anything or nothing. Smear tests pick things up very early so even if it was a worst case situation there will be treatments.

Good luck