**Update**

[kwalker0004]

I haven't been on in a while so I thought I would give everyone a quick update on how I was doing. My spring training with my horses went great though my riding and training for the rodeo circuit has been cut off due to my families concern after being thrown off of my beloved Trigger. So now all my family allows me to do is trail riding or horse shows. Not what I want but someday I hope that I will be back into the ring with my Trigger doing what we love to do the most.

Now we raised 15,000 dollars for me to be able to go to Ohio to see the Dr at the mayo clinic and to have all the proper test done. Hopefully this amount will cover the whole stay as well as the test and the drs visits. Or I guess I will be selling off my prized jumping horse next. So we will see what the drs will say. My appointment is not until late august with them. So my NL has taken me off all medicines here. The only thing keeping me sane right now is frozen peas. Though they don't last very long. Especially when your head feels like its about to explode. But since I can't even take over the counter pain relievers what else am I to do. Some days are good others are bad and some are the most horrific of my life. But I try to live through it all.

My symptoms have gotten a little worse since the fall. The dizziness seems to happen a lot note frequently, the ringing in the ears as well. Instead of two weeks the migraines now last almost 2.5 to 3 weeks, ( but that could be because of no medicine), my feet and hands go numb at unexpected times(especially when I'm cooking or using a knife). So I quit cooking for myself afraid I might do serious harm to myself while cooking and not know it is very scary thought. So now it microwave. I'm forgetting more and more each day. Stuff I have remembered since I was four that happened to me now has to be told to me by older or younger siblings. Its frustrating but I'm learning slowly to coupe with it everyday. I have a very patient boyfriend and family. They help me out a lot. And I try my best to sharpen my brain activities. Cause I hate feeling stupid or dump. I'm hate feeling dependent and I hate being watched like and infant. But I understand they are afraid I might do something stupid or cause damage. That's life for now hopefully things will get better as time goes on. Sorry its so long.

[kwalker0004]

So true. I would be lost with out all my little creatures. Just not my horse. Though he's one I'm in tuned with the most. My dogs and my bunny make me happy as well. When I see them I know I can make it. My animals make my world worth it. All the drama, all the pain, and all this craziness. They make me want to fight even when I feel like giving up. So I'm thankful that I am lucky to have these animals and that I'm able to love them all. So they may be lucky that they have me but I'm actually the winner rather they know it or not. But thats something I will never take for granted. I wish you best of luck on your up coming surgery.

[Elisaandbucky]

Oh I have seen those majestic creatures swim when I visited the same islands. You are fortunate to live where you do. Keep loving your horse - I believe animals know when they are loved.  The five cats I have adopted over the years each demonstrate a neat sense of gratitude for being saved. However, I was the one each of them saved.

[kwalker0004]

Oh I make it a date to visit my baby every day. He is on my brothers ranch, where I go every day. No one wants to leave me alone. After my fall. I don't ever want to let Trigger think that my accident is his fault so I'm the one who soaks his injured foot every day. If I could I would spend every day in his stall with him. But he enjoys being with the other horses in the paddock and I would never rob him of his happiness. He knows that one day we will be back at it and he knows he might as well enjoy his time now. Though I never would work him too hard. My heart would never allow me to do that to my animals. Selma they are the most beautiful creatures in the world. I believe so. I live right by Assateque island and Chincotegue Islands that have wild ponies and horse. They are so beautiful. I love watching them swim from the island to the main land. Its a beautiful site.

I will post pictures. I haven't done puzzles in awhile. But who knows maybe I will pick them back up. Sounds like a good idea anyways.

[Elisaandbucky]

Hi, I am a new member to the community, and I read your update. The love you have for your horse fills all the words you wrote. Animals are precious beings, and companion animals are sometimes closer to me than blood ties.

My surgery date is set for July 29th, and I am looking forward to the relief afterwards. I didn't have to wait too long, but it has consumed my life for a time. I also fill my hours with textile arts (quilting , embroidery, sewing) these days, as I had to take a step back from running. Riding a horse and then suddenly not, I imagine is sad for you. Are you able to spend any time just being with him?

[selmaS]

  Can't blame the horse with that ....aww....I love all animals and just think horses are so majestic. U are so lucky to be able to  have and ride them daily.

I have a few pics of things I have crafted on my profile page....I have sooooooo many different projects I am working on....right now a very difficult puzzle....lol...anything that takes thought and uses up my time...lol...but I love to make things and in the process of turning my DD's old bedroom into a sewing/crafting room.

I looke forward to seeing ur pics <3

[kwalker0004]

I think Trigger(he) got spooked by a snake. My brother usually makes sure the ring is clear of them before I practice but them things are so tricky and cannot blend and hide. Its the only thing we could come up with. As he is such an easy going horse and that is only when he misbehaves. So my brother searched until he found a family of black snakes hiding in  near the back post. Trigger only sprained his ankle which he gets pampered for everyday. Spoiled horse. But I love him.

Yeah I do lots. I donate them. I run out of room. I can't keep them all. Though I wish I could. I try different patterns or techniques and some turn out real cute. I want to keep them all. But I have no use. So I donate them to the shelters or give them away. Or I do custom orders for people for free since I got free time providing they buy the material. Which most of them do. So I enjoy doing it. I will post pictures of them.

Skylanders is a game for the Wii. Well my nephews have it for Ps3 and they got me addicted to it. So since I don't own a ps3 but have a Wii I bought it and now I play it. I bought it so they could leave there game system home this summer and they could play mine but now I play it all the time lol. Its fun.

[selmaS]

  Aww I know, I hope it was nothing wrong that the horse did it....and all is well with her/him?

Really u crochet too? U will have to post pics of ur projects...I would love to see them I crochet, paint and sew, I make quilts and things....love to be crafty.

I do not know what that game is, must be a computer game ...I do not play any of those....lol...

That is what u need to do know...I am praying it is all good for u <3

[kwalker0004]

Oh I know its for the best and we all knew it could happen. Though no matter we were taking precautions you can never predict what might and can go wrong in any situation. I never thought I would be thrown from a horse but I was. So now I must take care of mymile'sand my horse and find out what caused my beautiful horse to do that.

For now I do crochet, knitting, cross stitch, and latch hook. I keep myself busy like I usually do. As well as reading but not as much as I use to. No new good books out yet. So that has slowed my reading down. I help with my nieces and nephews. They got me addicted to playing Skylanders Swap forces. So I stay busy  and eating healthier. I just can't wait until the day I can actually getback up in Triggers back and ride as one like we use too. That will keep me going. As I know nothing will stop me from doing it. I just need to give myself time to get better and to actually get to see the right drs I need to see. That way I know for sure when I can get back on him and jump again.

Right now I'm focusing on me. So I can get better and if I must go through surgery. I will know for sure I will be okay with it all. That I have come to terms with it all. That I have my family there by my side that I would like there. Because many live many miles away from me. So that's where I'm at now. Taking life in slowly and preparing myself for what may come my way in the furture. Rather it be good or bad.

[selmaS]

  Hi welcome back....and thanks for the update.

That is scary that you had that fall and I understand your family wanting you to hold off for now with jumping....and I also understand how difficult it is not to be doing the things you love.

But, it is worth it to hold off....I am crossing my fingers for you to get to a Dr that is well informed and experienced with Chiari.

This time while you have to hold off doing things is going to help you learn patience as you will also have to hold off should you have surgery as it takes time to heal and recover no matter how good you may feel, you have to fight the  urge to do more then you should too soon as all it may do is cause set backs...find a hobby you can do while sitting at home.

Wishing you all the best <3