Alone, depressed, and pregnant

[Karmaki]

I'm 30 weeks pregnant and today the final thing that was keeping me going was ruined. My boyfriend and I broke up. He promised he'd be at my house tonight at 10 but as 11 came along, he said he wasn't coming because I had messaged him that I was upset he lied. Then I said I couldn't handle this and broke up with him. He saw the message and didn't reply (it was on fb)
Now I don't know what to do. I got herpes from him, pregnant from him, I'm being kicked out of my mom's house, and I'm too depressed to work. I just want to take my life as soon as the baby is born. She'd be better off without me. And I know no guy is going to want to be with someone as ugly and worthless as me. I'm a failure at everything in life and I have nothing I want to live for. After my daughter's born, I just want to take my life so I never can have anything else happen to me. I just don't know how I am going to manage for the next 10 or so weeks.

[JessieJ21]

And could you get assistance and help through your state?

[JessieJ21]

Don't give up! And you are wrong your daughter does need you! You are the mother she will hurt the rest of her life to not have known you :( Id give anything for a baby its gods greatest gift. I know it seems hard but let me tell you my twin sis was pregnant her senior year, the guy cheated on her and gave her clamidia and left her for a guy. She actually met the love of her life while she was still pregnant. They are still married to this day and have two sons together also. He considers her daughter first born his own! You will find the right person don't worry. I know its hard alone but you can do this! Please keep hope. Do you have other family or friends to turn to if your mom kicks you out?

[nursegirl6572]

You don't need a man to live sweetie.  Your'e going to be a MOM, the most important job you'll ever have, and I'll tell you that your daughter coming into this world and then losing her mother to suicide would haunt her for the remainder of her life.

You need to seek help for how you're feeling ASAP.  Relationships come and go...often for good reason.  That doesn't equate to life being over.  You'll get through it....suicide is NOT the answer.

Reach out and get help now.  You won't regret it.

Keep us posted!

[Paxiled]

Sorry, but you don't have the choice to end it all and you know it or you wouldn't be posting here.  You have a child to be responsible for, and my guess is, this will be much more satisfying and fulfilling for you than your boyfriend has been.  Once the child is born, and I think you know this too, love and connection will take over.  Peace.

[Bubulous]

Someone else will be able to come along later, like a female who may be able to relate a little bit better than me but for now I will just say this:
You do not have to have a man in your life to be happy and suicide is not the answer.  I am not saying that blindly I have attempted it and I have also been to the darkest pits of depression but I can promise you if you hang in there long enough light will break through and you will see that you are perfect just the way you are.
Sorry you are going through this.