What should I do?

[JaiGuruDeva]

Hello, well ive been to therapy before and they said that I could possibly be bipolar after i explained what i go through. They gave me a trial for abilify which i didnt take because i was scared to. I was still depressed though and started smoking marijuana heavily, I hate that I made a dependance on the one drug thats not addictive. Not to long ago I felt really depressed and went home one day and started taking the abilify and got presecribed abilify, I took it everday for a while but was still smoking. I stopped taking it again and I was depressed just not that many days ago. Now I dont feel depressed but emotionless. I dont care about anything, things that use to depress me dont anymore and I have no wants and cant seem to get excited about anything. I think about the fact that i cant seem to feel anything all the time. I havent even had the want to smoke which is weird cause I would usually want to just for fun or to escape being depressed. Now i can just lay on my bed all day not having a want to do anything or having any feelings...what is this?

[zsadia]

How can a therapist possibly diagnose any kind of mental illness or prescribe you the proper drugs + dose you need for your symptoms. Don't rely on what a therapist or PCP tells you, they're certainly not experts in the field of mental illnesses so my opinion is if anything they'll mess you up even more! Stay away from them and their advice. Make an appointment with a psychologist/better yet psychiatrist (MD, Ph.D) who can properly diagnose you and prescribe the right treatment. Don't play around with your emotions by trying different things yourself.

[DeeJaye45]

Marijuana is addictive. Where did you hear that is isn't? Ist is also a depressant which could be why you feel depressed & not want to do anything. The abilify should not make you feel that way. But there are other medications that can ve tried for bipolar disorder, many more. You could also be going through withdrawal from the marijuana causing you not to want to do anything. This lack of motivaton is a sign od depression even though you say you don't feel depressed.

[sodapop915]

your getting more n more depressed it"s not good please talk 2 your doctor n keep going 2 therapy on sunny days get out go 4 a walk make yourself go get up in the morning don"t stay in bed all day no way