every day of my life , i wake up and well , there's nothing to look forward to. even if there is i just dont have the emotions in my head to react to it.ime 14 and school has just come to an absolute holt for me , the same stuff every day of my life , go to school , in lessons my teachers speak to us about what to do then thats it , everyone else is getting on with there work and ime sat there like , what did she ask us to do ? its just as if ime trapped in my own head.
even when i engage in conversation with someone , its just doesnt feel as if ime really there , just pretending to laugh and enjoy what they said when my head is just at a holt.
ime really worried about myself now. all i do all day is sadden myself and keep my emotions balanced by listening to music which just keeps me on edge.
Ashley Dutton.