Hospitalization?

[mariana1996]

I'm a 16 years old teenage girl.
I've been diagonised with depression, anxiety and obsessive compulsive personality disorder with avoidant tendencies.
I have suicidal thoughts and self injurious behavior.
I take antidepressents and anxiolytics.
School is hard... I believe I have fear to school. I avoid go out with my friends and I avoid going to school as much as I can, with or without my parents knowing.
When I do something right, I can be proud of myself for some minutes.
When I do something wrong, I get anxiety and regret it forever.
I'm scared. I don't want to be like this when I grow up.
Sometimes, all I want is to be hospitalized because I know there I can rest and forget everything. But I can't do that to my family. I don't know... What should I do?

[Bearkitty]

Dear Mariana, we could already be best friends, my life your age was just the same (I'm now 34). But I've been cured and am doing fine now, after being through all drs, neurologists, psychologists, therapists, etc.; even had a couple major surgeries.

I can help YOU now, really! I've been through it, and have overcome it! ;) What can I do for you?

I hope to hear from you!

[dementedchick16]

Hey I am also 16 and have depression and borderline personality disorder if you ever need to talk message me

[Crystal413]

Hello, I'm sorry your having such a rough time. Can you talk to your  parents regularly about your feelings? It's better they know and try to help you and be involved in your life to help you feel better. They want you to be happy. Your their daughter, you come first, they care so much. Please don't think you are doing anything to them, they would want to help you and not see you suffer. This would help a lot. It would also be very helpful for you to talk to a therapist. Meds and therapy are very helpful together. I know you are on meds and I don't know how long you have been on them. Meds take a while to work, some meds up to a couple of months until it gets built up in your system. Some meds don't work and we need to change them. It's important to talk to your psychiatrist regularly to let him/her know of your feeling. This is the only way he/she can help you and determine if meds are or are not working and may need a possible increase or change.

Another thing that would help a lot is exercise or even just walking. It gets the endorphins working which help you feel better. When people are depressed they don't feel like doing much. You have to use self talk to motivate yourself, make yourself do things even if you don't want to. This really helps. Even when you don't want to go to school, tell yourself you have to for you. That your doing this for yourself. Look at it as your job, just like you wouldn't not show up for a paying job whenever you wanted to. You need an education for yourself, nobody else. You have a future and you want to be an educated individual.

Hang in there. The best thing you can do is help yourself. Talk to your parents, see a therapist and your dr regularly. If you feel comfortable talk to a trusted friend too.

There is a teen forum on this site as well. Maybe you could give that a try and share your feelings with them as well as reading about others in similar circumstances. Let us now how you do. Hope this helps, Crystal