How can i feel better?

[mikecarolan]

My best friend Commited suicide by hanging himself
And there isnt a day where i dont think about it. I want to remember the good times with him,
But all i picture is him being hung. Sometimes it isnt that bad But other times i cant sleep at night
Because i think about my family being hung all the close ones to me being hung, This is not because
i feel sorry for myself, or because im attention seeking,
im 16 and i should be happy. But i cant because everywhere i look just always somehow relates to
people hanging themselves. Sometimes i have really bad images in my head, and bad dreams
of when my best friend is in my dreams. And i wake up feeling confused and upset.
its been 6 months since its happened but i cant stop thinking about it all through the day.
I find it really hard to be happy. And sometimes feel terrible.
I really need some help to try and get it out of my head.
what can i do?
please reply asap

[whodunnit]

Hi there,

Your best friend isn't you. Nor are you responsible in any way for what is always a highly personal decision. Often such decisions are made when very upset, depressed and maybe affected by drink or drugs as well.

People do such things when they are at their worst and would not do it if they were under treatment or inn a better environment.

It is something we all think about but rarely do we act.

What you need to know is that it is not your life that was taken and it won't be. You are obsessing about it as is natural but the way to deal with it is to take some therapy, talk it out with a professional so you understand it was so very sad but it's happened and your friend would not have wanted you to feel as bad as you do.

[marialou]

hi mike,im so very sorry for ur loss,ur so young and shouldnt have to go through such heartache. always try to remember the good times and happy times u spent with your friend when u have such thoughts.its ok to smile.its ok to try to move on an rebuild your life. time is a great healer because your good memmories will overcome the bad. if you need to talk then talk.family,friends or proffessionals.they are all ther for you. take each day as it comes and i wish you love,luck and happiness.keep strong,with the best of wishes,lisa

[LeftCoastChick]

You need to speak with a counsellor and I would recommend you speak with a psychiatrist. It sounds, I'm just guess you are having OCD thoughts, pretty common after a tragic event. See your family doctor and get a referral. OCD thoughts don't go away on their own.