I need support too

[Kashasteve]

hi. my partner suffer from depression maybe 15 years  on and off already. we met two years ago and with my help he gave up drinking, started medication and therapy, first with AA, than professional counselling, is going through very difficult divorce, lost his job - all in one.he can't cope with the easiest things, everything in his head is getting enormous.ups and downs 24 hours a day, coping with his moods, frustration, giving up nearly every day; and  I am the one who drag him through this ocean of misery, who is convincing him life is worth something, but I feel like I  failed somewhere on a way. I am exhausted, drained, getting ill from working long extra hours to keep our house going, bills, rent, counselling, solicitor to pay every month..now he got the job finally, but can't manage it, another crisis, suicidal thoughts, self harm thoughts and me being treated like I don't mean anything. somethimes I need a help, support, but where from? it is nothing for me..

[mom104]

Sounds like you need some support.  Is he Bi-polor?  My ex brother-in-law used to do the same things until he was dignosed with bi-polor.  After he got on the right meds he was alot better!  That's why I asked!  Hope everything works out for you!

[opus88]

remar is so right...it is very hard living with a depressed person their constant negativity and needing encouragement is very draining on you...you've helped him come along way but when you shoulder everything you too can get dragged down into depression( I know as it happened to me too)
You do need support and alot of it, are there any support groups where you are? I know therapy is just an added expense however honey you need to look after yourself too!!
Is he on any depression medication and see a psychiatrist? if so he sure needs a med review and if not than he sure needs to see one and soon.

My husband ended up shooting himself (lived) over depression and he was delusional enough to almost take me and his son with him....so don't hesitate to insist on better meds, and help for your sake too....you have been a very giving person but you need care too.
best of luck

[remar]

Depression can be very hard on partners, family members and friends. You sound like a very caring person and you do need support also for yourself.
Try to find a support group in your city that offers support for people living with a depressed person. I think this would really help you to talk with other people who are going through what you are.
Remember that your partner does not want to feel this way. I'm sure he would love to be rid of this depression. .
We're here to listen any time you want to talk. Take care. Remar