The truth is materialistic way of living will get you bored after a point of time.It happens to all human beings,unfortunately we never take time to turn inwards and look who we really are,from inside.Try reading some books on spirituality,try to be happy by yourself,do some meditation,go in to the woods....video games can get you out of sync..
At the age of 19, several things are going on with the teen and yes, hormones is one of them...And not only hormones, but the realization that childhood is really ending, and the teen years are also at the end of one road where the only way to continue is the road into adulthood...
Depression for most people is not a big thing that happens and then drives us into darkness and depression. It is usually a series of small things, small stresses, small decisions, small realizations that do not get addressed as they are happening. And then as more and more things happen to us, it is easier and easier to feel blue, sad and depressed.
It is so hard for any of us to say, " You have this, or you have that", that is up to a doctor, a therapist or a priest or rabbi. But to those of us who have been depressed, we read between the lines of the posts when we answer.
It is difficult to grow up, that is a given, and I do wish you the very best, and perhaps if you don't feel better by the time you are 20 or 21, you will seek out a qualified counselor to help you get to the root of the problem...
Good luck to you
M
Right, men can take longer to finish puberty, but the initial extremeness would have started to balance out. Again, please do read that I believe even if this were initially brought on by the initial hormonal change caused by puberty, it has reached beyond the realm of normal "teen hormones/awkward phase." It's lasted far too long.
Nothing tragic has to happen to cause depression. It's a brain chemical imbalance which leads to the hallmark signs, many of which you do describe. When something tragic does cause depression (and it can, obviously), it's known as situational depression.
I genuinely hope for your sake it's not depression, but a lot of what you describe sounds more like depression more than teen hormones.
Just curious, how do you know it would have already balanced out by now? I've heard of guys that don't finish puberty til they're 18-21. Also, nothing tragic happened when I started feeling this way, the thoughts came out of nowhere. I have never had anything bad happen to me in my life.
Trust me when I say you can be depressed at 15. I was severely depressed from age 15 through shortly after turning 20 and that was only because I got help in the form of therapy; if I hadn't, then it would have lasted longer because even with the early phases of therapy that I sought around age 20, I still had depression sinking in and out. I still find it sinking in if I don't watch for triggers and I'm now in my mid twenties.
There is a point when things are beyond the normal "teen hormone/awkward phase" and into the realm of depression, which this sounds like it has reached (isolating from friends for periods of time because you've lost interest, losing interest in activities you once enjoyed, etc.). If it was teen hormones, it would have already begun to balance out. Unless I completely misread what you wrote, it really sounds like it hasn't. But it is up to you when you seek help. Just know it's out there, and I really wish you the best of luck!
I honestly think this is part of that teenage hormonal "awkward phase" because I was perfectly fine before age 15. Since I'm 19, I think I'm gonna wait it out and let my body run it's course. I think an indicator that my hormones are raging is that I still have acne. I'm just now seeing tiny white hairs on my cheeks when the light shines on my face too.
I'm a guy just fyi
It sounds like a few possible things. You need to get hormone levels tested; thyroid could be responsible for things like the hair, the dry skin, etc. and can affect mood. Other hormonal imbalances can cause mood problems. So, you need some simple blood tests to rule that out.
You should also be assessed by a therapist/psychiatrist for depression and begin treatment, whether this is solely therapy or therapy and medication combined.
Please try not to isolate yourself as that is only going to feed the depression. Hang out with friends, watch happy movies/listen to happy music, etc. Journaling would be good as well to try to deduce the cause of these feelings. Taking personal initiative in things like that will be good and a key thing to your treatment.
Oh ya and these changes all occured at the same time at the age of 15