PLEASE tell me which symptoms of these anyone can relate to. I'll try to make this easy to read.
-I don't know if I am depressed or bipolar. Haven't had any manic "highs" in years, and don't really care about anything that really used to excite me, like sports.
-Been on A/Ds for 8 years. Many different combinations. Effexor seems like it worked for a while, but seems like it wore off. Currently on Lamictal and Abilify.
-When I started Abilify last summer, I had 2 great months. Felt good but not too high. But since October I have been absolutely miserable. There is nothing in my life I would change, no new acute stresses.
But now I have trouble getting up to go to work. My wife says I can't find joy in anything lately. I am always nervous. I am always in a fog. I feel like I really need to make an effort not to act "weird" around people. I used to be very social but lately, it's hard. I feel like people are noticing I'm not myself and not "all there". I also seem to have "the stupids", and don't feel mentally sharp like I used to. I even have anxiety about playing sports, and feel like I can't function. I have always had a lot of determination and heart, and have always been a finisher. Lately, I have trouble putting much effort into anything. My motivation is terrible, and it's killing me.
All this is pretty much unbearable I don't know if it's that I haven't gotten my med combination right, but over the past 8 years, I have had several good spells that have lasted a few months, but they never seem to last any longer than that. If anyone has any words of wisdom, please help.