I feel like i am the only person in the world who gets these feelings. They are difficult to explain. The problem i have is i get these images into my head of what i want for example recently i have a vision of a comfy,relaxing pampering night in on my own with lots of cuddly things eg dressing gowns and a girly film and a nice big bubble bath, i feel like having this would make me feel so much better in myself, however i plan this and do exactly what i have in my mind and i cant seem to find any relaxation at all, i feel like everything i do is a chore. even things as simple as spending time with my partner and friends, i have been suffering with this since april and my doctor has been very supportive but i feel like i enjoy nothing at all. everything is a push for me to do, it doesnt matter who what where and when, i dont look forward to things or even enjoy any part of my day even though i am choosing what i do! but even though i feel like i want to do nothing, when i do this i start to hate myself for not doing anything because i get so many thoughts in my head! its like a mad rush of how i am and what i want to be. i am considering copying someone i admire because i dont see how i can make my life any better. Please help as i feel helpless and i cant live the rest of my life like this i am only 19