Remeron Use and Questions

[Steve43]

This is the 2nd day on Remeron.  I've been feeling like the depression is starting to lift, but I've had problems before and had to stop the medications.  It feels like I'm in a drunken or like everything is brighter and intense (lighting).  I feel a little bit like I'm in a haze.  I know medications take several weeks to stabilize, but i'm definitely going through anxiety and fearful about getting out with people.  

I've been on other mediations that made my anxiety much worse and I feel like I'm a hypochondriac.  I know something is wrong and I just haven't found the solution.  I feel forgetful and stuck.  I realize there are circumstances I can control, but some I can't.  I'm worried about the medication as sometimes the other side-effects were more than I could handle such as severe headache, major anxiety & agression (when not on medication).  I'm feeling more passive now.  Is this normal?  Any feedback would be very appreciated.  Thank you for your time!

[Steve43]

Thank you for taking the time for your feedback. Very much appreciated.

[MJIthewriter]

I mean l am less depressed on Wellbutrin than being on nothing...

[MJIthewriter]

I was on it for a few months. It did seem to help me, except rapid weight gain. It was like I was retaining water and bloating.  When I was on it I noticed I didn't feel as down. I was generally in a good mood, though possibly a bit irratable. I may have been a bit manic on it. I seemed to be going crazy with creative ideas and trying to write them down.

I'm on wellbutrin now. I feel less depressed, but generally less focused than I was when on Remeron. I still feel the creativity, but a bit more passive.  I don't feel very emotional either, but that could be just my autism...hard to tell.

It seems with me, get me an upper, I get hyper... get me a downer, then I'm more depressed/tired... I guess that's why I tend to think of trying on meds like one would try on clothes in a store. That one doesn't fit... Let's try another...  That one makes me fat... Let's go for one that makes me thinner... LOL.