So, I live a great life. My family loves me and we live in a beautiful community. I am surrounded by friends and I am great at sports. Modestly speaking I am above average-looking, tall and fit. I have ok grades and I have a promising future as a firefighter/paramedic. I love my family and friends, I have a great dog too... Under these circumstances should be really happy... no? For some reason I cant help but feel depressed. The only thing that seems to help is taking a long walk with my dog or generally by myself... My relationship is great but long distance, I do visit her lots but I find my attitude is really shifty and Ill be jealous or upset very easily towards other guys.... she deserves alot better treatment than that. I might be the first Volunteer firefighter at my age. My career looks very positive and im a social magnet.... but the worry of the town not accepting my proposal for training worries me... School is extremely stressful and im not the best student and I am trying to graduate with great grades.... I barely drink, I dont smoke, or do drugs... football is my stress reliever and its over.... I cant find the motivation for any other sport right now.... I am soo tired all the time now too... I know I am done growing... but my body just wants to sleep forever..... and when I wake up I cant get out of bed... I'm just not happy... I dont think there is any reason for me to be sad, no justification... but I am depressed and I cry and everything...... I dont show anything to other people again, I have a great life and I know it, people know it but.... catch my drift? Why should I be sad.......
I just want to know how I can get rid of this yucky feeling.... ther than hitting people like football suggests