Thinking About Death

[Joystick22]

Im not sure if this qualifies as depression or not, or if this is normal or not. Anyways, im 18 years old and do have a lot of pvc's, having thee makes me realize just how fragile life really is. My problem is, I always have death on the mind theres not a day that goes by where i think wow i could die any minute. Its always on my mind.

Its not really that im overlly scared of dieing its jut the fact that I could die any minute as anything could happen. But as I say its always on my mind when im at school in class I think about it, just laying around the house its on my mind.

Im not sure what to do about it and im not to sure if its a form of depression or something else. Thanks.

[scooby09]

Im 18 and i think about the same exact thing.. I can look at someone random and say "Man they're gonna die one day, where will they go?" But i dont want to take any antidepressant pills... I can stop thinking about it for a while then thats when it pops right back up in my head... I just want to be happy like everyone else and not think about this right now... I m hoping this will pass.. I lost my appitite, i dont really eat like i am suppsed to.. Things that i love i still wont eat it... Last night i got on my knees and prayed to God, and asked him to let this pass... Im hoping it will soon, very soon because i do not like thinking like this... Before all of this a was a very happy person, who loved to laugh, and talk on the phone with my bestfriend. But now i barely laugh, and i realy dont talk to my bestfriend like that anymore either.. Right now i dont even have my phone turned on.. I m asking God to please let this be something that i can get over... I went to church yesterday to hoping while i was in there i would come out stress/depress free, but that didnt seem to work either. Im asking God to please deliver me from this because i don't like feeling/thinking this way...

[ArmaniKydd]

everything reminds me of death even the most random thing...a computer even because computers remind me of bad news

[ArmaniKydd]

I too have the same excact problem, i look at things in a whole diffrent way now..i look at random people on the street and i think to myself oneday these people will die bla bla bla all this b.s, and when my family members have fun i think damn one day well die..24-7 my thaughts are death,death,death..things even remind me of things connected to death, but then i say to myself death is far far away i want to live my life without this: ok ill speak to a psycologist but at the same time im going to work on myself by myself with help from a specialist

[Alcook]

I thought it was just me being silly everytime i thought about death but websites like this have shown me that a lot of people share the same thoughts on death like me, and that maybe im not mad after all. Most nights i cry myself to sleep thinking of death. Im 16 and my bedroom is downstairs all the rest of my family sleep upstairs, i lie awake worrying if there all ok upstairs and that there all breathing and none of them is hurt. This gets to me so much that i have to get up out of bed and walk into there rooms to see if i can hear them breathe if i cant hear them lets when i start to panic. No one that im really close to has died, but the thought of them dying makes me feel really sad. I always talk about death and my mum thinks im being silly. I really want to go and see someone about it but il feel really stupid talking about my feelings. Im glad that theres other people out there wow feel the same way. I feel for all of you that have lost someone close to you and im sure in time you'l be able to pass this grey cloud in your life and focus on happier times:) X

[Jeanie Scotland]

I don't know if it makes you feel any better but I think about death every day too. It fills me with sadness to think that no matter what you do or how hard you try it's always going to end in death. You can love people as much as you can but eventually it's all going to be gone. I am 27 now and these thoughts have been with me since I was a small child. Thinking of being nothing made me jump out of bed sreaming when I was little and things aren't much different today. I get those feelings more often now. At work, at home, out with friends. The only was I can temporarily cope is to blank it from my mind completely but it's there and it just comes back again. The doctor sent me to a mental health nurse but she never wanted to talk about death. It's weird but understandable, who would want to? I think the only way anyone copes is by not thinking about it. I have no one to talk to. My family, my friends, my partner are all wonderful but they don't want to talk about it. There's no point anyway as there's nothing anyone can do. I guess we just have to try to accept it. It's very hard but perhaps it's all we can do. If acceptance makes you feel happier then I would love to know how you are supposed to accept it.

[caregiver222]

PVC's (premature ventricular contractions) are more common than you would think and although they can have consequences, they can be caused by something as simple as a caffeine sensitivity leading to excessive ventricular irritability. Their presence is by no means a death sentence. I assume you have seen a cardiologist and had a thorough work-up. Make a meticulous log of your diet, nutritional and fluid intake, read the lables, and see if there is something in the food that could be causing this. Monosodium glutamate (which has many forms and is in many foods) can sometimes cause PVC's. Every day is a gift, and don't be pre-occupied with dying. Easy enough to say, I guess, but still true.