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Thinking About Death
Im not sure if this qualifies as depression or not, or if this is normal or not. Anyways, im 18 years old and do have a lot of pvc's, having thee makes me realize just how fragile life really is. My problem is, I always have death on the mind theres not a day that goes by where i think wow i could die any minute. Its always on my mind.
Its not really that im overlly scared of dieing its jut the fact that I could die any minute as anything could happen. But as I say its always on my mind when im at school in class I think about it, just laying around the house its on my mind.
Im not sure what to do about it and im not to sure if its a form of depression or something else. Thanks.
Its not really that im overlly scared of dieing its jut the fact that I could die any minute as anything could happen. But as I say its always on my mind when im at school in class I think about it, just laying around the house its on my mind.
Im not sure what to do about it and im not to sure if its a form of depression or something else. Thanks.
Hey everyone I've been wanting to post things that I feel that concerns me and my health. I am constantly worrying about myself it is also on and off but this time it's been for a while almost a month. It's been one year that i've moved from my home to a farther and larger country and have been feeling homesick since day 1. I am a very sensitive person and emotional I have lived one year with my friends in the country but went for a vacation back home , I felt like nothing is real and constantly worrying about if this things are real or not. I feel like I'm going crazy cause I know that it's real but I'm thinking otherwise and that if I die I would no longer feel like this. I don't know why but I don't know what to do with my life anymore and I am not going to kill myself that makes me even more scared and worried. I am missing my family so much that I feel a huge weight on my body. I want things to be normal as it used to be when I was younger, carefree and naive. But now I just want to go back home and be with my family at the risk of not seeing my friends for 4-5 years. I am 19 now and will be turning 20 in October. I don't know if it's the start of depression or not but I am sleeping well. I am going to go to a psychologist to have an advice or treatment because I know this extreme feeling is not healthy for me and I still want to live and die Old.... Please can someone understand why I am feeling the way I am? This all started since I had a panic/anxiety attack out of no where again...
If you are thinking about how you are afraid you will die it is not a suicidal thought and it is not a sign of depression.
I been thinking about death for a week now, and it's just TERRIBLE, the concept of dying and what happenes AFTERWARDS is what is bothering me, I'm just 17 (very young indeed.) some might say i haven't experenced life yet .. ect ect... my diet has changed. the thoughts of my loved ones around me will die eventually... My grades have even dropped...everything will be distroyed, the sun will blow up and distroy earth ,Human race won't even last forever, for billions of years? too hard to believe, Im not asking for people with "religious" views to help me, because to me, religion is just a confort for the concept death itself, I'm pretty sure the thought of us "not existing" one we die freaks us right out... (it does to me) it's like before we where born, no "self awareness" or conscious, but what's interesting is that the human spirit (soul) EXISTS, the question is, can you distroy something that has been already created? Answer is no. You might distroy its physical from but it does not mean it did not get exist (for example smash a rock with a hammer)... I dont know if everyone here is a big fan of "paranormal" things, but I have been involved with the subject once and (witnessed/heard) someone get possessed, you might laugh at the idea, because people and movie producers cracked it out and made movies / wild claims about it, just like 2012 "the end of the world" just because the Mayans stopped the calendar, to see outside the box. we humans don't even understand the concept of the whole universe and how it was even created in the first place, and billion of years later a thing called "life" appeared , we don't even exactly know what life is in reality.
So we don't really know what happenes "after" we pass away in our physical forms. I surfed the web and tried to help my depression by clicking links after links... all I found was forums of people with my same problem, but with religious/phycaitrist/medically influenced (pills) people giveing there opinion, on how to "help" which is a unnatural way to deal with this. We ourslefs. Has built this doubt and version/theory of death for ourslefs, and we are the only ones to overcome it by the same way. BY OURSELVES... I want my old care-free life back, where I didn't have panic attacks , or the thought that we are comeing closer to death / every minute we are dying , scared of going to sleep because it's like dying type of views. But yet, everyone goes through this. People who don't talk or even say anything about "death" are avoiding the subject itself, we are accepting knowledge knowing our own "limited" awareness, it's sad that the human race is the only race that tries to comprehend the "what happens after" subject. Your brain bugs you and asks "what happens after I die?" and each time you feel depressed, and pain and suffer, your brain is basically asking for information for this, and it receives different types of versions (by your assumptions) on what happens afterward. the only way I found to help is saying "I don't know" and stop trying to apply logic to it in the first place, because in reality you are making ASSUMPTIONS. This is normal stage for people, so don't you think you are alone.
But. The truth is, man is not meant to know everything.
Death is a peaceful thing.
I might be emotionally stressed and still need some help, but I'm pretty sure that everyone will get over this subject one day... And even faster when we are around people that understands/feels what we are going through.
Its not a over-night thing, it takes TIME in my perspective...
Hope this helped some of you...and hope some of you will help me~
xx
So we don't really know what happenes "after" we pass away in our physical forms. I surfed the web and tried to help my depression by clicking links after links... all I found was forums of people with my same problem, but with religious/phycaitrist/medically influenced (pills) people giveing there opinion, on how to "help" which is a unnatural way to deal with this. We ourslefs. Has built this doubt and version/theory of death for ourslefs, and we are the only ones to overcome it by the same way. BY OURSELVES... I want my old care-free life back, where I didn't have panic attacks , or the thought that we are comeing closer to death / every minute we are dying , scared of going to sleep because it's like dying type of views. But yet, everyone goes through this. People who don't talk or even say anything about "death" are avoiding the subject itself, we are accepting knowledge knowing our own "limited" awareness, it's sad that the human race is the only race that tries to comprehend the "what happens after" subject. Your brain bugs you and asks "what happens after I die?" and each time you feel depressed, and pain and suffer, your brain is basically asking for information for this, and it receives different types of versions (by your assumptions) on what happens afterward. the only way I found to help is saying "I don't know" and stop trying to apply logic to it in the first place, because in reality you are making ASSUMPTIONS. This is normal stage for people, so don't you think you are alone.
But. The truth is, man is not meant to know everything.
Death is a peaceful thing.
I might be emotionally stressed and still need some help, but I'm pretty sure that everyone will get over this subject one day... And even faster when we are around people that understands/feels what we are going through.
Its not a over-night thing, it takes TIME in my perspective...
Hope this helped some of you...and hope some of you will help me~
xx
"Everyone around me acts like this never crosses their mind so makes me think I am crazy"
For my part, I can say that this also happend to me. What I found most strange was the fact that the death is a taboo topic and had the impression that there was an elephant (a brontosaurus, perhaps) in the middle of the room and despite all the discomfort caused by this huge animal, no one had courage to mention it! Later I realized that people who do not speak or do not think about death are equally (or more) panicked that I. They only have found in religion a placebo that satisfies them. With transhumanist ideas I found the attitude which I think is the right one: instead of putting my head in a hole and pretend things are fine, try to do objectively something about this unpleasant aspect of human existence. I recommend the movie "Transcendent Man", which approaches well the question of death.
For my part, I can say that this also happend to me. What I found most strange was the fact that the death is a taboo topic and had the impression that there was an elephant (a brontosaurus, perhaps) in the middle of the room and despite all the discomfort caused by this huge animal, no one had courage to mention it! Later I realized that people who do not speak or do not think about death are equally (or more) panicked that I. They only have found in religion a placebo that satisfies them. With transhumanist ideas I found the attitude which I think is the right one: instead of putting my head in a hole and pretend things are fine, try to do objectively something about this unpleasant aspect of human existence. I recommend the movie "Transcendent Man", which approaches well the question of death.
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