Constant battles in my head

[FMLitch]

I know this may or may not sound strange but all day everyday there never ending battles waging on in my head. It's literally like opposing sides, good & evil fighting for the win but they each continue  The best way I can describe it is to give examples.

[specialmom]

Hi there and welcome.  I'm sorry to hear this!  And no, it doesn't sound strange.  I think most who suffer anxiety and depression could say they have noisy thoughts they have difficult time turning off. Do you see a therapist or have any treatment started?  

[Jerry_NJ]

I still struggle with the loss of my wife of many years, yes I also have to deal with being old. The saying "growing old ain't for sissies" hit it on the head.

Anyway, I know mental rumination can be very difficult to deal with.  I have the  most difficulty when I wake up after an hour or so of going to bed and remember an upsetting dream.. the rumination always slips to loss of wife and self incrimination that I didn't make more of the life we had.  That sort of thing.  I often turn on the light, look at my (tablet) computer and then just lay there with the light on.  I usually drift of to sleep again only to repeat the process again.  I have been taking Trazadone hope was for less depression/sleep interaction and maybe some relief during the day from depression.  I was prescribed one 50 mg a day, taken at night.  The med has a short half life, and is mostly gone before the 8 hours sleep period is over.  I shifted to taking during the daytime and using ambien (generic) and had a slight improvement in sleeping, but still trouble staying asleep, and still dream cycles.  

Understand we all have, must have, periods of REM sleep, which is when the dreaming usually/always (?) takes place.  Happily most of us don't wake up between REM and when we do wake up we don't remember dreaming, so dream content can't spoil your day.  

I had my annual physical yesterday and my primary care shifted me to Zoloft (generic).. any input on that drug and my troubles sought.  Tx.

[gloryrose]

I understand what you are dealing with. It is not strange at all!

[Yazid12]

I can relate to what you're goin through cuz i feel the same , just to say that it's normal for people with depression so yeh . Hope you ll get better thou ...