That is your depression talking to you. If you are in a crisis and feeling suicidal, you need to call a crisis line, go to a ER, call a familly member, friend, doctor. I have been where you are more than one time and what I learned is that it is okay to go for help. I know one gets tired of fighting depression but one just can't give up but go for help to get thru this...and you will.
Please take a step to help yourself.
remar is right, we've all been where you are, but there are options and you need to keep fighting this. This is a great place for support from people who understand where you're coming from and can share their stories so you know you're not alone. Life is always worth fighting for, so try to stay strong. Talk to us so we can help you...okay? Take care.
I think a lot of us here at this forum have felt the way you do. There are options to help with your depression though. Are you in counseling? Are you taking medication? We're hear to help you any way we can. Remar