What I Can Do Now

[Shadowfluffy6]

I have Asperger's Syndrome, anxiety disorder, and… for right now I got severe depression for the third time. When I’m at school I have a lot more fun hanging out with my friends that expect me for what I can and can’t do, and I don’t seen to be more bored. Normal day is everyone knowing me ever liking me which brings prude self-esteem/fame. “The party don’t, really start without me.” I really want to just stay at school because, a normal night comes with a creaking holt, and the school’s fame wears her out as much as everyone else. But the sad thing is I don’t get any respect from my parents, not like the respect I get from my teachers and the administrators. I’m always reminded that I’m so different and so lonely. I feel as if I can’t do anything and I know that you know that can do whatever everyone else [around me] is doing.

I feel so much calmer when I don’t take my meds, because I had a teacher who said that you don’t need anti-depressant to make yourself happy: you need to do something nice (for other people) that you want other people do for yourself. I didn’t think it would work for me because I had four deaths in family in my young life. So I forgot to take my anti-depressant one night just to see if she was right, and she was. That’s what I do when there disrespect me, and thinking about running away, calling Supernanny, getting anemic or eating too much. So what can I do.

[witheredrose]

Hello

I agree with remar. You really should try to talk to your parents. Ask if you can have some time alone with the two of them, let them know how you feel  and see if the three of you can come up with a scedule that also involves family time. Im sorry to hear that you feel this way, always remember you can come here with any and all of your questions if you feel nobody else will listen because there are countless caring individuals here who will. I hope you find a solution soon, good luck!

[Shadowfluffy6]

My friend my pal. who I and everyone around is leave me. He has work for a reputation of a clean school and a the town who knows him.

[Shadowfluffy6]

i get all Attention at school and when i got home the Attention goes ZERO

[Shadowfluffy6]

how would you feel when you get all the Attention and when you go home you ZERO Attention. and i have a disabilly

[Shadowfluffy6]

my dad runaways to his family's houses and my mom sleeps. but my mom want to spend more with my dad BUT NO she sleeps because she works on weekend nights.

[remar]

The things you are talking about doing to yourself sound like a cry for help. They are going to hurt your family and friends but, you as well. It's not worth it. Since you're still in school can you get in to see your school counselor to let them know how you're feeling? Oh, and just missing one pill of your antidepressant will do nothing. It takes awhile for it to build up in your system and awhile for it to get out of your system,