Hi, I'm 17 years old and I feel like I have finally reached my breaking point .
Everyone I've ever loved, trusted, or cared for has thrown me in the dirt .
I don't know what I've done to deserve this, it's like I was born to serve one purpose and that was to be used by anyone who crosses my path .
I feel as if I am only here to help someone who's down, back up, just so they can toss me aside ..
It hurts, and I can't help but think I need to convince myself that I am immune to pain, because it's the only way I can make it through the day ..
I was so madly in love with a boy once, and I knew it was real, I felt it, and he actually admitted to using me only to fill a void ..
I had a ''best friend'' for nearly 7 years, and recently she admitted to using me only to keep her happy until she could be with her real best friend in California .
Every relationship in my life that meant something to me, was based off a lie ..
I don't know how to feel, if I should cry, scream, smile, or just go mute ..
I try to convince myself that everything happens for a reason, but honestly, considering everything I've been through and it still led me to bad things, really just makes me question why I continue to walk this Earth ..
I feel like I'm just living to exist, because I will amount to nothing ..
I've been nothing but good to everyone from day one, and yet, still, I remain unappreciated ..