What's wrong with me?

[Natskye]

I haven't yet been to see a doctor, but would appreciate feedback. I've had a reallyvhard life with alot of bad things, however I've always blocked them away & would prefer not to deal with them. Now in the past 6 months I've found that I'm feeling really sad about myself. For no reason & a few times my sadness has turned into rage within the blink of an eye. The last time rage attacked me I found myself trying to rip my hair out & it really scared my husband aswell. I am also pregnant right now & I'm not sure what is happening to me as I have always been a strong person & in control of myself, but lately I feel the total opposite.

[darlenedaisy]

Feedback...I wonder if this is happening because your hormones are haywire from your pregnancy ?

[mammo]

Not dealing with past events doesn't keep them away....they come back in the form of depression and/or anxiety demanding to be dealt with. Now with being pregnant, your hormones aren't helping.  You need to see a therapist to learn how to cope with these past events so you can ease your depression.  You can't help how you're feeling....depression does this to us.  But with help, you can get better.  We often think we've done okay by neatly tucking away past traumatic events, but they end up doing us more harm than good.  Seek help so you can start to feel better.