need help

[pujith]

i used to be very happy before, but now i even had suicidal thoughts. i'm alive because i dont have enough courage to die. don't treat my problem as silly one, its too serious for me.

i love god, but i abused and insulted him. i don't know how i did it ! because my thoughts it happened. i have sincere belief towards god but i did mistake towards him. i cant share my problem elaborately. but know i lost my mental peace, happiness. i could not control my bad thoughts, i couldn't even stop them.

why this happened to me ?
i'm good, happy enough from past 20 years but from 1 year these bad thoughts are haunting my life. i didn't consulted any psychiatrist and i didn't even shared my problem with any one. i look normal and i am pretending as if i'm happy.
i want to know: is there any way to forget our past 1 year life ?

please give me any suggestion to be get rid of all this and be happy as before !
(dont say to go and meet a psychiatrist).

[SisterNewSong]

I cannot forget my sins, but I can learn from them. That's what I'm striving for...more self control. I know God has forgiven me, but I'm finding it much harder to forgive myself.

[teja1306]

i know god will forgive me, but i'm repeating the same again and again. i couldn't stop thinking about it! If i forget every thing, i will be very happy and lead my life as usual. i want tips to forget my past.

any way thanks for your suggestion..

[remar]

If you believe In God then you know He forgives everything. Whatever you've done if you ask for forgivness He will give it to you.
I agree with the above poster. Sometimes you need to get things off your chest and talk to someone.
I really hope you start feeling better. We're alway here to listen and help if we can.

[pujith]

thanks for your suggestion. i will try. i think it will help me.

[Dolphinleiker]

It does not hurt to talk to someone whether it be a doctor or here with us. I understand that you don't want to talk about but it might help you to talk about. We are here to help you not judge you. One thing I have learned with my depression and anxiety which took me a long time to figure out was give worry and stress over to god and he take care of the rest. I in my past had my qualms with god too but now I'm on the right track with him.just take your time don't give up or give in. Good luck