death obsession

[klw1986]

I have a problem to where I have an obsession with death and worrying about when and why I will die and what will happen to by body afterwards, anytime I hear that someone has died, if they are close to me or just someone I know I get crazy to where I research on how embaling dead bodies  and how the body decomposes. I contstantly think and worry about dying every day, several times a day, say I am driving down the road, I will actually invision my car crashing in to someone and my death. I am a religous person and sometimes feel like it may be a way of god telling me that I will die soon. I dont know If this is something everyone goes through or if it is something more serious.I have had a problem with depression and anxiety in the past and an currently taking medication for that issue, but I am afraid to go see a mental health proffesional becuase I am afraid they will think I am suicidal or something and put me in a pysco ward. Anyone have an suggestions?

[klw1986]

yes, I am a christian and have been saved and do believe I will go to heaven. That is not really what I worry about.....Its just to complicated to explain. I have had this obsession my whole life and want to be freed from this burden. I pray about this alot for god to take the worry from my mind, and I am very confident that I am where I need to be with the lord. It is that fact of getting to heaven. The though of having to be emalmed or having my body creamated or buried and rotting terrifies me. I am married and have a wonderful husband of almost two year and it terrifies me thinking of having to one day have the same thing happen to him and I will have to bury him.

[bgrimes86]

I can totally sympathize with your situation as I am going through a similar dilemma. I too suffer from depression and anxiety and am always worried that I'm going to die at any moment. I've messed up many times in the past and now I always worry that God is going strike me dead if I mess up again. It sounds to me like you may be in the midst of what psychologists like to call an "existential crises" where an individual ponders life, death, and what happens after we die. I don't know which faith you come from, but I am a Christian and believe that God redeems anyone who places their faith in Jesus Christ; I'll probably get in trouble for mentioning "Jesus" but I could care less if this post is criticized or removed...that's what I believe in so that's what I'm gonna tell you. If someone else comes along and wants to talk about their faith in Buddha or Krishna, that's cool...I'm not gonna open my mouth. But back to the point: We are here for a reason, not by chance. Don't let anyone EVER tell you that we are here by chance! Don't let anyone ever tell you that we evolved over millions of years and that there is nothing after death but rotting in the ground. It's a lie, a lie I believed for many years. Your Creator loves you and wants you to know that there is reason and purpose behind all things, and that He will never abandon those who have faith in Him.

Ecclesiastes 12:7   ...then the dust will return to the earth as it was, and the spirit will return to God who gave it.

John 6:40    For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in Him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day.