eternal procrastination

Every morning when I wake I feel a really strong sense of failure. Like somehow I'm missing something. I'm supposed to do something. But I don't know what it is. This feeling is there throughout the day, though kind of under the surface; whenever I see someone important in my life, who I want to do my best for (my parents, my brother, my friends) that sense of failure resurfaces, and I feel ashamed to look at them. It's basically like I'm procrastinating on something really important, but I don't know what it is. Pleeeeeease help me. This has been happening for 2 or 3 years now. I feel like my life is not moving forward.

[MMahon]

Your symptoms sound like depression.  It is frequently more severe in the morning and makes us feel empty and not in control of our feelings. The feeling of inadequacy is almost always present.  We feel like we should be able to control how we feel and when  we can't we suffer loss of self esteem, self confidence, and feel weak.
Depression can impact our lives significantly but it is quite treatable.
Go to your GP and get a good physcial exam and blood tests.  Tell your doc how you are feeling and that you need some help.  He can guide you further.

[x89rt]

yep, same thing here. its depression.

[compnet]

Unless this is a matter of your heart and soul.

[Cloudwindgate]

I felt like you i avoided people because i felt i was a failure and was emberassed to see them. Its true it is depression. But this part of depression may be cause by things i get feeling of depression all the time and its not always me feeling like a failure but when it was none stop like that it was because my life had come to a stop. I was not growing in any way or doing anything with myself so perhaps you need to reflect what has changed in these few years that would cause you to feel this way for me once i got going to college i felt great i felt as if i was moving up the river again.  But its always a good idea to do as MMahon has said this was just my experaince and i still suffer depression just in a different way so a doctor if you can afford it is a great choice

[Keifer101]

Thanks all for your input. Honsetly, I think compnet has it right. This *is* a matter of a heart and soul. I've tried medication for awhile (citalopram), and for awhile the feelings were subdued, but they never felt gone. Just subdued. Then they came back. I think the problem is i don't know what the cause is, but I think if I can figure out the cause and treat that them the depression symptoms will disappear.

[Keifer101]

Do you think there is a way to figure out what it is I am unhappy about? Even if I'm not consciously aware of it?

[compnet]

I've tried before.  MedHelp does not allow religious discussion on the medical parts, but it does on the member forums on MedHelp.  There'd I could talk about what fills my heart and soul.
http://www.medhelp.org/forums/show/404?personal_page_id=1012978

Magnesium deficiency commonly causes depression symptoms, so I'd look into that, too.  Depression can really make everything so blue.

There is also a fantastic, in-depth website here:
http://helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm