help plz

[confusedmammy3]

I am 27 year old woman with 3 children, a 6 year old n 1 year old twins! I'm so worried I had my 1st daughter n I never felt love (I do love her n look after her well) struggled thru this, then when she was 4 I fell pregnant again I was so happy, @ 18 wks this baby was lost I felt awful 3 months later I fell pregnant with my twins, yet again when they were born no mothering love (like I said I look after my kids but don't feel that rush of love) is there something wrong with me? I watch my friends with there babies n I want 2 be like that plz help!! I'm also scared to tell my doc incase my kids are taken away from me!!

[confusedmammy3]

Thank you so much every1! I no it sounded awful but I do love my kids more than anything, just I watch my friends n u can see the love in there faces wi there children!

[Poo44clooner]

I think that you are going through post-partum depression after you had your children and since it went undiagnosed and untreated it has stayed and probably has gotten worse.  You need to contact your internist or your family doctor and tell them that this has occurred after the birth of your children and he may refer you to a psychiatrist who will properly diagnose you and start treatment on you.  Your brain chemistry is all out of whack and you are not thinking properly as a mother should toward her children (that is not your fault) and are probably getting worse.  You need help and there is nothing wrong with that. Perhaps after a few months of being on meds you will feel better and eventually get off the meds.  It is sometimes temporary.  Do this if not for yourself then for your children because they are smart and can pick up on your cues and feelings and actions toward them.  These children need their mom who will bond with them and be loving with them.  I know had this same problem with my first pregnancy which resulted in a miscarriage and then I finally got pregnant but as excited as I was during the pregnancy when my baby was born I had terrible thoughts about hurting my baby.  It is a terrible feeling. But I got help and it took a few months but finally I started to bond with my child and it all worked out.
I wish that you feel better.
Angela

[outboundcorruptor]

postpartum depression?

[4Maddie44]

Do you think you may have post natal depression?  Talk to a doctor about how you feel.  

[mammo]

You need to talk to a specialist about this.  Your kids are well cared for and you recognize that there is a problem....they won't take your kids away.  Your fear of losing them says you love them very much!!  I would see a psychiatrist for an evaluation and go from there.  Events from our own childhood can cause us to feel differently than we should as adults. Often we don't remember what the event was but with therapy we can learn what is going on and get through this.  It's obvious that you love and care for your children, so don't be afraid to seek help so that you can feel better and more confident as their mother.  Big hugs and take care.