i have lost all hope!

[angie815]

hi... i have suffered from depression since i was nine...... i am now 26 and its getting worse as life goes by..... people try and say they understand but they dont you need to experience it before you know. I am at the edge...suicide is getting near, i think about it everyday..... i need help, i refuse to take pills......... this is my last hope..... please i am desperate....help me!

[penwill65]

Baby girl this is a must you have to goto this link and watch it, i was getting ready to chage the tv channel today, and the man said do not touch that channel ! you have to hear what Dani johnson has to say! So i did listen OMG !!!! I think i was just for you!!!!! Anyone out there that is struggling in any matter , This girl has hit the nail right on the head!!!!!!!!!!!!!Dont forget her Name Its, Dani Johnson, she has a cd and a book a out called Spirit Driven Success. She was talking about depression and( suicide ) and what causes it! and how to get rid of it out of your life for good!!!!!! Please go and watch her tv broadcast, with benny hinn for today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!5-7-08

[momeluv]

Hey when you reach out around here you had better be ready to do some typing.  LOL!
You have come to a place of unconditional love, & understanding.  
You say no one can understand unless they have been through it!
We have all been through it baby!
We are all brothers & sisters with the same pain & suffering that you are haveing, even though our stories are different, they are much the same!

I am a dual diagnoisis!  I'm a real (&$^%%&#)  case!  To say the least!  But I promise you  if you stick with us here and you listen & you take suggestions and put them into action, you too can laugh again!!  Even if you don't want to!!!!!

Please feel free to yap at me any time, I rarely sleep, I am often here lurking about! (((giggles)))

God bless ya,
D ^j^

[lonewolf07]

GAK!!!!  When I said reaching out can be so different, I meant to say reaching out can be so difficult.

sorry

[lonewolf07]

Hi

Saw your post and identified with it since my first post was because I was suicidal.  It seems like I can't remember a time when I wasn't suicidal.  Suicide is an option, not a good one but sometimes when in horrible anguish just the thought of having an option - even suicide - can, in a twisted way, make us cry out for help.  And reaching out can be so incredibly different.  Nobody, even other suicidal folks can really understand YOUR reasons for being suicidal but they can listen and offer caring and support.  That is what I found here at this forum when all I expected was jugement.

Anti-depressants aren't for everybody.  I have tried them and without talk/cognitive therapy or group therapy, they don't do much.

For whatever it's worth, I have tried to commit suicide, on some level more than once.  But I think I really just want to kill the pain in my spirit.  Being a failed suicide really bad but being a successful suicide is even worse.  There is a suicide epidemic among the people of my culture (Native) and even children .... but I digress.

Your message and reaching out for help shows, I think, that you don't want to be a  "successful suicide" and I hope you don't commit suicide.  El-dave is right.  Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.  Just put it off and talk to and listen to the folks on this forum - it sounds like you already have some good suggestions, advice and a website.

lonewolf

[el_dave]

Hello. Do you know if there is any way I might be of any assistance? I don't know things like the other folks here do, but I have a lot of respect for your refusing to take pills. Not saying it would be "wrong", nor saying that you should or shouldn't. It's just something I identify with. Perhaps you might start with the realization that whatever induces you to not take pills has got to be a strength, whether the decision is wrong or right. Like you, I say people won't agree with that, but it's simply something they don't understand though they think they do. Might you have other strengths that you're not letting have free reign? There's a guy in here, Hensley.. 238 is it?.. that knows more about hope than I do. I can tell you this much for sure: you just stepped into a nest full of the sort of people who go around committing random acts of kindness, and the hope you need may very well be just around the corner. Please do shelve the whole suicide issue until you give these folks a chance, they really deserve that and you do too. I've no idea of what may have happened to you, but why don't you just type out whatever you feel like typing and give these folks more to work with. They are so caring, it's pretty beautiful. Have you any idea why you feel so badly?  Your concepts, not ones you've been told, that obviously may not have helped you. The only thing I can assure you of at this point is that you've come upon caring, and knowledge, so if you can do so, please say more. For my sake, if you can't for your own. Please?

[ParamedFlorena]

Angie? This is one hope! Thank you so much for joining MH and grasping for hope! May it be a good way to gain perspective on hope again!

There is hope, and that's not just "something I say". You don't think there is help in pills and maybe for you it is not they way out of depression. There are other ways!!!

One option there is for you is:

http://www.befrienders.org/support/helplines.asp


Please check it out. There IS hope for you too, as it was for us others who had suicide ideations.

Don't be afraid to check back - that's what the "Send a message" is for too.

~Florena
(Once a Befriender, always a Befriender)