i,m very depress now,my life as been always hard but now is pure hell all i do is think of death and i no how i would do it,

i always been depress at the point i even tryied i almost did died but i didn,t ,,now i,m depress but i think i,m always depress ,i no sometime its worst then others,but now a lot of things aint working in my life including my over all health ,my humands rights as been taken away 4 a silly reasson,i,m acuse of having aboufriend to mucc at my apparteent see i,m in those  low cost appartement sue to my desability andd their yuge but i can.t hardly walk i,m very anxiouts .i panic i,m diabetic type 2,artherithis hypothyoiidisme.plus fibromyalgia and the  the sosial services as never gave me the same as tother person like me or even in a better shape then me.i seem to have to fight always since youge child i have been abuse in all sort of ways,,wow did i ever needed to fight to get ahead ,but i,m the olders of 5 sisters so i needed to protect them so i,d take the abuse 4 them.but now i,m feeling abuse again but now insucurity ,i,m panicking ,i can,t sleept or hardly eat.i,m gettong ill more as i go they took my mothly checkoff 537 per moth i add to pay rent with and my groceries and all and no more medical card ,i havent comited a crime but their treating  me like i have,a docotor tols me i havent long to live,wow can,t you belived that after all seem i did  make my heart go bad,,i down and so low i,m going  crazzy with thaughs in my mind,i don,t know what to do,i have nothing but i do have lots that love me and i do to,i want to live 4 now at 50 i have fuond a good partner in life,but seems since i,m in these apartements and on social benefits i cannot have alife or food or meds,,nothing,p.lz help me so desperated in ,,,n,b,,bathurst

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do you thing 537.00 per months is enought to live on?

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are they right to manage how much time my b,f comes and see me ?

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a desable person should have more the 537 dallars per months ?

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[janet591954]

Wow, you have it a lot worst than me...it is good you can voicize your pain and disappointment.  Keep searching for help...don't let anyone tell you that you
are not important or will die soon...it's a cop out for them to not to something to
to help you...they are trying to eaze what little conscience they have.
There will always be people to put us down or ignore us..we just need to rise back up taller and louder to be seen and heard.
Have tried a local church, synagogue, etc that you know ministers to the poor and homeless?   Those people seem to have compassion and aren't ashamed to come down to our level...they will make you feel important and probably have resources
and contacts that can help you.
At night it is hardest time to be strong...at night we are tried, tried of fighting, searching, looking for what we need.  Don't make decisions at night...wait till the morning and good outside and let the morning refresh you and start again...
Try looking for a friend that you can help and they can inturn help you...when we help someone it makes us feel better...and you need a friend...so reach out...keep looking...keep your chin up and fight and ask God to help you fight with faith and strength ...God can be our best friend even if we don't have one
He has for me...You are important please listen don't do what you are thinking...please