life without me

[mony0467]

whaat is the lest painfullest way to die ?

i think im in more pain than whaat death would be ,

[nananeedsthis]

there has got to be someone you can talk to...a favorite teacher, the school nurse. go to a health clinic, they are usually free to those that can't afford health care, just go somewhere...don't try to do this alone,  please!!! You can't do it without help and meds. we all know this. I'm 49 and have been fighting my whole life, I would never think about living without my meds. Those are the first things that are paid with my money and I don't care what anyone says about it. Keep in touch, we care.

[mony0467]

the last time she saw mme she was talking about putting me on it but then she never saw me again, no i have no one , ive been to the doctor before and she referred me to some place that was going to cost so mum  turned it down ..

[4Maddie44]

What did the psychiatrist say she thought was wrong with you?  Did she not mention medication?

I agree with mammo, without medication I could not go on.  It keeps me stable.  If I stop it, the depression always comes back.  Have you no-one you can talk to?  Please see a doctor and explain how you feel.  

[mony0467]

ive been to a physiatrist and it was a free one and she saw me like 4 times and hasnt seen me since , i dont think she cared either. i cant talk to my mum either , she just calls me mental and to get over myself and think about others for once. so theres no one here who is going to help me

[mammo]

You need medication and therapy.  We rarely can beat depression on our own, and that's okay.  Accept that you need help with this and get the available help.  We've all been there and without medication I'm not sure I would still be here!  Depression is doing all this to you, so fight back and refuse to let it do this by seeking help!

[mony0467]

im not on meds, i thought i had gotten through being depreesed but it just comes back and everytime its worse. i hate life..

[4Maddie44]

You are so young.  I wish I lived near to you and could help.  Yes depression is a living death, but believe me, if you fight, you get through it.  I have had severe depression for 20 years, and every time I go right down, I say I cannot get through it again.  So many, many times I have said that.  But I am still here, and I will go on fighting.

When I tried to kill myself I saw how it affected my family.  They are the ones to suffer too.

Please keep in touch with us here.  Let us know how you are.  I beg you my dear young lady, not to do anything rash.  We are here.  We will help you through this if we can.

[mammo]

Do seek help as suicide is not the answer and may just be the beginning of an even worse suffering.  You're only 15, have you spoken to your parents about this?  If not please do so, they love you and would want to know.  If need be, talk to your school counselor but start talking.  You have a whole lifetime ahead of you, with so much living to do!  I know at 15 things can be rough, but talk to us or PM any of us as to what is wrong.  Maybe just talking to us can help.  I would be interested in hearing why you feel this is your only choice, and maybe between the two of us we can figure this out. You are in control and have choices, take back your power and let's get you moving forward!

[Sue357]

Please seek help immediately.  I am also depressed and anxious and see a therapist and psychiatrist.  I have thought the same thoughts that you have but know that that is not the way.  Again, please seek help before you take a drastic action.  Are you on any type of meds?

[Kobuk]

Hi, are u getting any help?  meds? pdoc? therapist?  Hope that u feel bettrer soon.