my world is dark.. depressed

[nirvana1234]

Im depressed, i see no light, i been in my bed all day i cant get up, i only ate a bit.. But im sad.. I feel like crying n crying.. I suffering from panic anxiety attacks, and yesterday after 10 yrs i broke up with my boyfriend. His a addict, we were so happy, then he relapse and his on drugs  so i left.. Im so depressed.. I haven't been like this since my last anxiety attack 5months ago.. Is hard.. Im losing myself i think im going crazy.. Im scared.. Im not thinking of suicide i dont want to die... But i hate feeling blue.. :( advice. I have no friends..

[nirvana1234]

So he ex bf gave me his wallet n money he said sorry his not going to do drugs.. That it was a mistake because we had fought.. And he was angry. Good thing He didnt spend his check.. But i dont know what to do.. Should i believe him.. Did he really regret it??? If he really wanted to do more drugs he would spend the money.. Im confused..

[4Maddie44]

I know it is not the same, but you have friends here.  You may never meet any of us, but we support each other.  We all understand what depression is like.  I think many of us have been where you are now.  

I don't think you are going crazy, you are just very depressed.  It is not surprising because ending a relationship is so very hard.  It is bound to hurt a lot, and for quite a time.  I am so sorry you had to break up with your boyfriend.  You were together a long time.  

We all hate the things depression does to us.  I do hope you gradually feel better.  It will take time to accept the breakup.