hi, i'm 20 years old. I was extremely depressed as a kid and it followed me into adulthood. in Feb I made the decision to talk to an old teacher who is only 10 years older than me. she's known me for 7 years. we had talked before but not actually talked. I cut myself. not very much anymore. but it got to be a daily thing. I now have over 250 scars throughout my body.. anyways. one night after class i asked her if i could talk to her for a min. i had on my regular long sleeve shirt and a journal in my hand. i told her i didn't really know how to tell her this but i had to tell someone cause if it didn't i might do something i regret, or couldn't regret. i couldn't bring myself to say it out loud at the time. but i pulled up my shirt and showed her the scars, she was shocked. she told me not to do anything stupid until she read my journal. the next week when i saw her again she suggested i go to a shrink. she went with me to my first visit. that night i gave her my razors she told me to call/text anytime i needed anything or even just to talk i texted/ called anytime i felt like cutting she's helped me stop.
now my question is, why do i feel like i'm imposing on her life? I love it when we talk, i feel like i have someone who isn't going to judge me in anything i do. I consider her a friend is that wrong? i consider her someone i look up to someone i can count on. She basically saved my life. and i feel like i owe it to her. should i feel like this? i need help. i don't know what to think about this.
Any advice will be greatly appreciated!
You were lucky to have her there when you needed her, if you feel that you have been too demanding then just be a little less.
We are all human , we all walk on this planet together and we are here to help each other if we can.