Effects of depression?

[gem_layla16]

Ive been up and down for a few years now, and i suffered from depression when i was younger, after a stint on drugs and the loss of my aunty, i sorted myself out, but i ended up in a relationship where my ex partner used domestic abuse and was very controlling, we had a daughter and i now live with her by myself in a flat, i dont feel down all the time, but i cant bring myself to leave my house with her by myself, only when family and friends are there and its getting me really down, i was living with my mum for a bit, and when we lived together she would always have a go because i was keeping my daughter "cooped" up, but i really dont mean to, i am fine when my dad comes to get me to go somewhere or my friends want to go out, thinking of leaving the house with layla when noones there brings me to tears? Ive read on the internet a little about agoraphobia, i have suffered from anxiety for a few years, but with no medical treatment just dealt with it really, anyways just looking for some advice on what i can do, ive made doctors appointments but i always end up just not going, or making an excuse for why i cant attend.

[gem_layla16]

Thank you for your advice, i will try and do it, i really want Layla (my daughter) to have the best in life and i know staying in the house isnt going to be good for her, thanks again.

[lost_myself]

Im sorry to hear you are feelin this way. I suffered from this for almost a year . I never left the house except to go to dr appts. I didnt have professional help available , so I did it on my own. You have to slowly rebuild confidence and show yourself that you CAN do it and there is really nothing to be "afraid of" . I started by just going outside..not really anywhere just outside, then a walk ( maybe 100 or 200 feet from the house) Then eventually around the block, with time you start to  feel normal again and get back to your old self...I travel all over now ..drive ,fly you name it. Just go slow keep inside your comfort zone ,but also listen to yourself if you feel like doing more dont be scared of it. Its a clear sign you're ready to expand your limits. I hope this is helpful..Take care.