Why do I feel like I don't belong?

[Dylan_M33]

I've never felt this bad in my entire life. It's almost time for me to move out of my parents house and move into the real world. I feel worthless, I have too much anxiety to preform basic tasks, I have fits of rage where I want to just kill somebody, I feel like there are spiders crawling under my skin I feel them inside me and I can't get them out. I feel stuck I can't breathe I can't stop shaking. I fantasize about running away and driving my car off a bridge. I constantly feel tired and sick this world ******* disgusts me. I feel like I'm drowning in my uselessness. I feel like I'm a parasite, leeching off everybody around me. Why did I have to be the sperm cell that made it? Every day is ******* torture. Nothing interests me anymore. At school I feel everybody staring at me. I can hear them talking about me and all of my mistakes. My life is nothing but a prison cell and if death is my key out then I'm breaking out of this world.  

[Paxiled]

First thing you need to do is see a psychologist who can diagnose you.  You're at the age when this stuff comes out if it's going to come out, and you're obviously frightened about the "real" world (it's all real, or not real, no matter where you're living or what you're doing).  You need to find out why.