i think i need to talk to someone

[junegirl]

Hi, Im a 21 year old female...Ive been wonderin for a long time if i need to talk to someone and i came across this site lastnight and joined. So here i go.....Ever since the summer of 06 i've been havin issues, My bf for almost 2 years broke up with me and i had to move back home, well when i came back home i found out my parents were getting divorced after 20 years. I was havin some health issues...I was going numb on my whole left side and i was seeing a neurologist for all these things and when it came down to it he told It wasnt anything physical and so see a therapist I made a call to find out about one but never made an apt. So the numbness went away after a year, but during all that time i began drinkin alot, I mean im a social drinker, but when im bored and upset I tend to drink alone, and i also do other things to physically harm myself, because i feel if im goin to get hurt it should be by me not anyone else...So i think thats enough info for now.....your opinion please???

[junegirl]

thank you...I mean im ok most of the time, but there are those days when i just feel like **** and nothing is going my way, and nothing ever will...I just feel uncomfortable i guess talkin to someone face to face i dont know..i was going to call someone the other night and see about meeting with them...but i didnt get enough courage too...Most of the people know me as a very outgoing over the top person, but they can tell when something is bothering me to....There are just alot of situations i get put in that dont help, like my parents divorce and them always putting me in the middle, there were years of me hearing "IM MOVING OUT"..like why tell your daughter that unless u really know...or ***** about each other to your daughter..and ive told them that...and then also my last relationship i was in..was horrible, alot of emotion, verbal, and alil physical abuse...and lets just say i now have a restraining order....you know its just things like that..that are always in my head and bring me down alot

[LeftCoastChick]

You need to get immediate help, if you are doing any self-harn, please go to your local ER, psychological issues are taken just as seriously as any other. If you are drinking alot it usually means you are masking some issues, same things with drugs. Get to your family doctor if you don't go to the ER, but I would highly get to the ER and detox from whatever you are doing. It's hard to guess what other types of self harm that you are doing, there are a multitudes of ways. Hurting yourself is no way to deal with any painful issues.  I know by you writing here you want some help., if you are thinking or planning suicide, get help immmediately. You can feel better with medical help, trust me it does work!! I have walked the same path,
please keep in touch,
Depression Co-Community Leader
LeftCoastChick