Aa
even wierder
wow man......am playing sarah mac again n goin manic down the drain again....feel like reading the bell jar and playing this music....but 5 minago i was mr. wahoo.....shew......rapid cycle bi polar is a trip.no matter what tho, i try to reach out as much as humanly possible to everyone......luv u all.....be hard......'core
... hey 'core
Is that a typical trait of bipolar or as you said rapid cycling... can you just have those moments and not be bipolar? I lose it sometimes with certain songs and can't watch some movies during certain periods of time that are what I always just associated with "emotional" times.
My last very noted spin being the fall of 06 to present. I'm ok... but not 100%. I had a project that was fun and exciting. I'm not sure if the project or asking a certain guy to be a part of the project put me into over the top energy/creative mode... till I destroyed it all. The professional and personal relationship with this guy... I blew it all up. We've had a bit of a... seems like, a game of cat and mouse for the last 10 years. But... I know he also was the mastermind behind this project... he brought me back into his world when I was pretty much out of the loop, down for the count... and, well too much to go into. I feel that there is some manipulation going on between he and his ex(now present, again) and he and I.
I'm in love and keep messing things up. Or perhaps just bad timing or I'm just bad at relationships... period.
So... blue heart here on top of everything else. But I can't fall apart ... again. Hence my wanting to communicate with others as I freak out on my own possibly diagnosis... if I get my *ss into the psych dr, eventually. Trust issues... men or women, doesn't matter. Not all the time but... with this #hit, yeah... uh huh.
Sorry for babbling... I really do go up and down, sorry.
Is that a typical trait of bipolar or as you said rapid cycling... can you just have those moments and not be bipolar? I lose it sometimes with certain songs and can't watch some movies during certain periods of time that are what I always just associated with "emotional" times.
My last very noted spin being the fall of 06 to present. I'm ok... but not 100%. I had a project that was fun and exciting. I'm not sure if the project or asking a certain guy to be a part of the project put me into over the top energy/creative mode... till I destroyed it all. The professional and personal relationship with this guy... I blew it all up. We've had a bit of a... seems like, a game of cat and mouse for the last 10 years. But... I know he also was the mastermind behind this project... he brought me back into his world when I was pretty much out of the loop, down for the count... and, well too much to go into. I feel that there is some manipulation going on between he and his ex(now present, again) and he and I.
I'm in love and keep messing things up. Or perhaps just bad timing or I'm just bad at relationships... period.
So... blue heart here on top of everything else. But I can't fall apart ... again. Hence my wanting to communicate with others as I freak out on my own possibly diagnosis... if I get my *ss into the psych dr, eventually. Trust issues... men or women, doesn't matter. Not all the time but... with this #hit, yeah... uh huh.
Sorry for babbling... I really do go up and down, sorry.
i have the same exact reaction to movies and music.....but only when im cycling....sometimes im neutral (not often) all it takes for me to start cutting is a couple sarah Mc songs and bang, or read plath, u know.....yesterday the cycles were 3 to 5 secs apart.....thought i was goin mad.sorry to hear of family troubles....wish i cud help....well, thnx, be hard..."core
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