what can i do?

[carlos007]

Hello
9 days ago made a mistake stupid. I had oral sex with a woman. After three days of that relationship came to me that I have a sore throat until today.According to Dr. Hook M.D.(especialist of MEDHELP) my case does not present a risk of HIV and my symptoms are too early (requiring at least 2 weeks)

However I think I'm infected and that my life is over. Why I am not yet recovered from the pharyngitis? Why symptoms began three days after oral sex? Too many coincidences

At night I have trouble sleeping and the only thing I think of the day is how to end this agony. I have thought about killing myself but the problem is that my parents would suffer greatly. So best thing would be like an accident.

I feel that the days in this world and they are few. The only thing I miss are my parents, who were unconditional to me.I'm gonna miss my mom. She has been very important to me and I love it. I know she will understand my decision, but time heals all wounds. I'm going to miss my dad. he was always a good example, a hard worker, honest and good man

Unfortunately I could never find true love and happy times were less than the bad times
Atte.

Carlos

[3Babys679]

Hello,
Yes, Im sure you should just give it more time. Try to push these thoughts
out of your head, Things like this happen alot, very coincidencial that you happen
to get sick just at that time. If We sit and let ourself "Think" too much we can work
ourselves up into a worry. Please try to give it more time. And Maybe use it as
one of those lessons learned. God Bless and Good Luck

[jaber268]

my dear
through away these bad thoughts
HIV does not present in the picyure you mentioned
it is still too early to show
sure it is not HIV
just a coincidence that you got your throat sore
and it is usual to have pharyngitis for this period of time
it is just a lesson for you
to rethink of such bad acts
and to decide not to do it again
wish you a good luck