hemangiosarcoma

[LongHairedGSDLover]

Hello, I hoping someone can help me.

I recently lost the love of my life, a 10 year of Long Haired German Shepherd dog called Bear, a gentle giant and my shadow. He was diagnoised with the above and there was no question about him undergoing the operation to remove the tumor from his spleen. All went fine, after which he turned back into a puppy, which was false hope, but I prayed he would recover. Even though, I was told he would live a few more months, sadly he only managed 4 weeks, and colapsed again with another tumor that grew so fast on the wall of his stomach, I was shocked.

I took him to the vets, which is all a blur... all I remember is being told he had 24 hours to live and its best was to put him to sleep.

That couple of hours was a complete dream. The only thing I recall is seeing my tears fall on my baby as he died in my arms. He fought so hard and did not want to go to sleep, he struggled and cried. The vet screamed for more meds, he had never experienced anything like it. I have no idea how I got home, and I feel so guilty...

My partner of 3 years claimed he loved my dog too, but did not shed one tear. We live on a mountain with now close contact we neigbours, so I do not have anyone to share my greif, its been 12 weeks now and I miss my Bear so deeply.

I want to rescue another Long Haired GSD, but does anyone know what causes this terrible cancer? I cant go through this again..





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[aggieone]

I just read your post, and I am so sorry you are going through this. Our babies are truly just what I stated, OUR BABIES.   I just went through this with my lab, Sandy Grace.  It is a horrible thing to have to make that decision.  I cannot imagine what you went through as she fought so hard to live.  Please remember, you were helping your baby not to suffer anymore.    It has been a little over a month now since I lost my Sandy Grace, but I think about her all the time, I miss her so much.  Your baby knew how much you loved her, and you did all you could.  I can write so many things in this post to try to make you feel better, but they would be words right now.  From my own experience, I know time will be the only thing to help us through our loss, and my next question is "when does the time start?"     Cry as much as you need to, but think about the fun times with him.  Think about him not suffering now, keep some of his toys, his blanket/bed.  Look at his pictures and kiss them.  I look at Sandy Grace everytime I open my cell, she is my wallpaper and I give her a great big kiss.  I still talk to her, it helps.  Go to my journals, click on list journals, sort by comments and read her story, it take you to her final hours, it will help you know you made the right decision.  I am still struggling over my decision.  I have received many e-mails about her final hours and it has helped me so much.  I am thinking of you as you go through this pain and suffer an empty space that you can't seem to fill.   Our ver contacted lab rescue when Sandy Grace died, but my husband and I are just not ready.  Maybe later on down the road, you can rescue another baby and create a new place in your heart for them.  Stay on this site, as I can assure you that support from these wonderful friends will get you through this.  Aggieone

[suzi-q]

I am so very sorry for your loss.  I know how hard it is.  Many of us here on this site recently had to put our beloved pet down or has died.  We are all sharing our grief together as well as our healing and moving forward.  Some of us have gotten new dogs others are just not ready yet.  We all take it one day at a time and share our feelings and stories.  I am not familiar with hemangiosarcoma.  You can post your question about that disease on the "Ask a Vet" forum.  

I had to put my Tiffy down in December and it is also a blur to me.  I felt like I was in a dream-like (should I say nightmare-like) state and don't remember details either.  My Tiffy also fought to stay here also.  So I understand the guilt you feel.  She didn't want to lay down or rest.  She kept pushing herself back up no matter how much anesthesia they gave her and valium shots.  It seemed like a lifetime before she finally was in peace, but I am sure it wasn't as long as it feels.  I am crying as I type this because it is still so new and I miss her so much.

So, please know you are not alone with your feelings. We are all here for each other to lean on.  I wish you peace.