Anyone that can help. Please

[jingy28]

HI,
  I have been diognosed with Bulimia / Anorexia for 16 years. im finaly seeking help. I do have questions though. A day has not gone by in 12 years that i havent restrsted rood all day then purged at nite when i do eat. my chest feels like i have presrure on in alot suden stabing shocking pains at night and through the day. im weak and i get very dizzy and faint feeling everytime i get up .My Head Hurts like my forheads going to explode ever time i purge anymore my throut hurts contantly and is swolen iv losts several teath to my ED and im still doing this crap. i feel horable.  3 nights ago i had the most fearful nite i was laying in bed drifting off and out of nowhere i get this EXtreem pain and pressure under my left brest and shotness of breath folowed up with a firey buring pain going from what felt like the vain in my neck all the way down my arm to my elbow. I just want input on what all this might be. Im not scared anymore im ready to recover i have 3kids i want to see them get older. at times i feel the pain is to much and id be better off just not waking up. BUT id take any pain and any problem i may have caused to see my childern reach adulthood.

I know that som respinces might be hard for me to hear. im ok with that dont sugar coat your responce It dosnt work. IM just ask what some opions might be and im aware its just conversation.

Reaching Out
Jenn

[jingy28]

to you all thank you. i do apprechate it and in an attempt to try to seek out what was wrong with me im finding that im in need of the suport just as much.
Thank you!
Jenn

[Zoelula]

Just realized you did put your name...Best of luck, Jenn, and let us know how you do.
Zoe

[Zoelula]

Hi Jingy

I'm so glad to hear you are getting help. It's hard, nearly impossible to do it on your own, especially when you've been bulimic so long. You don't say what type of treatment you are going to get, but be sure a good medical checkup is a part of it, in which you are completely honest about your eating disorder. Any damage that might have ocurred is reversible and the key is to get treatment for the eating disorder and everything it involves: physical, emotional, psychological, even spiritual. Recovery IS possible. I had an eating disorder for most of my life. I didn't get recovery until I was 46, but now have been free of all that insanity for 16 years and FREE truly is the word for not binging, not purging, not obsessing about weight, and being on that crazy merry go round. Now I live my life, my weight stays within a 4 pound range and I eat well and enjoy cooking. You can get there too, I promise! Just get, and stick with the treatment. Be patient, it doesn't work overnight, and if one therapist or program doesn't work, try another. Also consider OA as a great free support in addition to whatever treatment you get.(See, that didn't hurt at all!)
Zoe

[Frogmasta]

I feel bad for you. You must eat something. Make it small at first and DO NOT PURGE! Do whatever you have to so that you do not make yourself throw up. And i mean anything. Each day eat a little more, until you are eating full meals and not throwing up.