I have had dual diagnosis of Anorexia, Bulimia, Binge eating, and over exercising which goes in atrocious circles since i was 13 and I am now 21 years old. No other professionals have been able to answer this and I have checked everywhere. The problem: every time i attempt to recover and introduce food into my system, I can usually eat small stabled meals for a few weeks until I become horribly sick. This looks like extreme nausea, weakness, and a strange type of acid reflux, burping up food, but it tastes revolting, like putrid rotting poison. I know the taste of stomach acid, and this stuff is just not right, tastes like my insides rotting. What IS this and how do i conquer it?
I always try to wait this period out. But what ends up happening each time is vicious hours of throwing up without meaning to. So how am i supposed to start eating without purging if i end up puking my guts out with sickness anyway? I think my digestive system and bowels have shut down somewhat. I have been addicted to laxatives for a long time as well, only because my doctor stupidly prescribed them for me thinking it would make it easier for my digestive system and bowels to work when i brought him this problem. I cannot seem to at all take a crap without them, so for weeks the food stays inside me and it is really painful. I am an extremely active athlete, i no longer want to have this addiction rule my life, because i need to be able to eat healthily in order to keep doing the activities i love. My bloating is getting out of hand, painfully extends out abnormally even with a few sips of water. I have recently been in a bulimia episode i somewhat have control of. My day consists of starving myself, working out many hours, and at night I binge, throw it up, or if i am lazy overdose on laxatives, but anyhow considering if the day following is busy, i usually take laxatives or else the remaining food inside makes me feel nauseous. Any thoughts, tips, vitamins, medications i could try?