Insecurities and trust issues

[JennieSoSlim]

I am with my babies's father and we been together for 2 1/2 years now. Since young i had very low self esteem and i got that from my mother because she was the same way. I don't like my weight at all and my breasts, buttocks, legs, arms everything is too small and it aggravates and annoys me and most of the time it makes me angry. I hate the was my body is and i am trying to change it and its impossible. My metabolism is hyperactive fast. I lose weight faster than i gain them and it is so stressful and depressing. I try eating but i have a very poor appetite and i have to force myself to eat half of the time. I only like eating some things. Like burgers, lasagna, pizza, chicken Alfredo, mac and cheese and things like that. My hunger goes away fast also so when i'm starving and eating, my hunger goes away on the 5th spoon of food. I bought a protein shake to gain called serious mass hoping it would work. they said i need to eat 3 meals a day and that i between and i am hoping i can do it. I need help. I know i am stressed and lonely all the time. I am in a shelter and my baby father is living with his brother and we only see each other like 3 or 4 times a week for like 4 hours. I'm in Harlem and he is in BK. So traveling and fair money is killing us and i be thinking he cheats on me when he is not around me and it upsets him that i accuse him when he is not doing anything. But it bothers me. Maybe i am wrong about him cheating but because of my size i feel like he looks at other girls cause they have something i don't which is their body and i don't have anything. He says he loves me for me and he loves the way i am but i don't believe him because i don't love myself. What should i do?

[disdas1]

Hello

Thanks for sharing your experience. I do not think that your boyfriend wants to cheat on you because of your small size. I am very thin too. Some boys love thin girls very much! And I know its hurts a little bit because its not easy to gain weight. It was the same for me. The guy who loves u, he will be with you no matter if you will be fat or slim :) so just be optimistic, please!

I have the same problem with eating as you..Also one guy he gave me good advice today he said I should eat regularly each day at the same time that will help me to gain weight faster (so I haven't tried it yet but I will) hopefully it will help..also i think protein shake would definately help..

[Dr. Kokil Mathur]

Hi!
I am sorry to hear that you feel the way you do. It is important to consult a doctor. May be the shelter authorities can guide you regarding a therapist who can help you with this. Along with that, try yoga, deep breathing and do some exercise. This will build up an appetite. Have confidence in yourself—keep reminding yourself that you are good. And try and arrange to see a therapist as soon as you can.  
Take care!

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