Thank you for reaching out. I am quite concerned for you. You do need to seek medical and psychiatric attention for your symptoms and behaviors. Laxative abuse and vomiting can cause electrolyte imbalances that in turn can cause heart attacks and lack of oxygen to the brain. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. Whether you know it or not, your children are unconsciously and consciously picking up on your struggle. If not for yourself, for your husband and children seek help. If possible, seek eating disorder specialists. Let the medical doctor know about your bulimia. It sounds like the eating disorder is controlling your life. You may need a treatment program. You can go to the bella vita website to learn more about treatment options. Take care of you, Patricia Pitts, PhD The Bella Vita Los Angeles, CA
Im going thru the same situation.. I love to eat but i hate when my stomach is full so i throw up.. I fell much better when empty.. I drink a bunch of laxactive pills every night.. Im 21 years old and weigh 135 and im 5'8 also and every time i see my self even fatter.. I dnt know what to do.. I have to hide this from my husband cause he doesnt understand my situation.. Cause he knew this 5 years ago and got pissed off so i pertty of on my own on this
I have problems with both anorexia and bulimia. I know the feeling of not wanting food in your stomach. I was admitted into the hospital and put into rehab for my eating disorder. I found it useful when I had someone take my scale so I couldn't weigh myself. I also put up papers of positive self talk on my mirrors to cover it up to where I can only see my face. I also wrote on my mirrors with expo markers some positive things about myself. it also really helps to have a meal plan and keep a food diary of what you ate, when you ate, and if you purged or not. purge can be through throwing up, over exercising, or taking laxatives. I know it's difficult to just do these things all at once. it took me a year after rehab to even truely admit to myself I had an eating disorder. Think of your kids as a reason to get better. they don't want to see there mom in pain like this. You also need to tell yourself "I am in control" this tells the eating disorder that you aren't going to listen to it. Next time you have the urge to purge, tell yourself that over and over again.