my mom called me 'crazy' because i feel and see myself fat. and my friends are making jokes about me because i told them few days ago that i'm not thin and that i have big butt and they were like "yeah you have huge butt lmao" and i thought "yup thats what i told ya" but on the other side it made me sad. i know that i'm not healthy but i try to hide it. i have this moments when im like "yo i dont care about my weight and look" and next day im like "**** im fat and i should lose that fat" and i dont eat. but then i eat a lot. but i have some days when i feel ok, i eat normal and everything is ok.