help there is something wrong with me?

[Crazigrl501]

I am 25 was diagnosed with endo when I was 17. I've had 2 laparoscapies. Pretty much the cure was to deal with it and take bc pills until I wanted to concieve. well at 17 I def wasn't ready for a baby! So I basically took birth control pills for most of my teenage life until present. I started to freak out a little about not being able to have children...so we tried last year in jan. I just stopped taking pill and by feb we were prego! yay! so for all u ladies that are going thru it....it can be possible:) now my biggest problem that I've had since forever is my sexual drive. I never really cared for sex. I only have an orgasm solely. until recently my husband is great and is VERY patient! but I'm nervous now because I don't want sex to ruin our marriage. I don't have any need for it...and well he is a guy so u know his needs! am I broken? is there any hope? please help if u kno of anything I can do.....

[CA25]

No the enemy (the devil) wants you to think that way, ok here's my testimony, I am going to shame the devil just to show you How God can turn things around.... I am the opposite of you, i like sex alot... I am not married either but I vowed to God that I wouldn't have sex again, and than I did like the same night I wrote the Vow. I kept having sex and that open the door to demons to come in and do their jobs... and remember the vow I wrote was cursed.... soon after the vow seemed to coming to past :( affecting my every life situation, my mind first, second my healt, than my womb and than my relationship.... I felt God was for sure gone. I was so helpless.... I cried but I kept having sex,... I kept listening to the devil.. girl he had a strong hold on me... little did I know that I did have to accept that. I wanted to die. my life was beginning to crash. I had no one to help me. I felt lost, my mind was messed up and so was I. I was thinking I just want to die, it was no use as I thought, but than I begin to talk God with much faith... asking him far a deleiverance. My first lady sent me a cursr breaker, and I broke the curse by faith! but that wasn't enough, I wanted a touch... I asked for that, and I wept so hard at church that, he touch me, but than, I thought, I wantedto see my deliverance like Thomas did, so I am asking God for that...Girl, I can tell you that 5 months ago when this first started, I thought no way God will help me, I knew for sure I was doomed to hell, but Jesus came back for me :)

[Crazigrl501]

thank you! I kno I'm sooo thankful for my precious daughter! I just kno the "sex" issue was always a self conscious thing about me. And I just think that I'm different and its not normal!

[CA25]

Pray. In the word God which is where I am going says, that you are not your own, likewise as well as your husband.... Just pray that God will restore you in that area. You are blessed and so is your womb, God bless your baby!!!!