Hi magda,
Ahhh, aren't we the optimistic and cheery trio right now? I'm sorry you and Sally are down. I totally understand the feeling worse and "escalating slowly but surely". That is exactly how I am feeling right now. Kind of like the dam broke and I can't stop the flow.
Hang in there Magda and Sally. For what it is worth, we are all in this together, no matter how cruddy we feel today.
Much love to all of you...
Krista
Krista, I doubt very much that anyone here is about to "hate you for your rant". I'm sure most everyone here has felt the same way about something similar or can, at the ver least, relate.
But I think we must be catching something because at the moment, I think if you, Sally and I got together we'd make a fine trio. As of yesterday, I started feeling a little down about this try. I don't think I even really noticed it all that much. But today I feel worse and it's escalating slowly but surely.
I stared off all happy because yesterday my belly finally starting to deflate just a little and today just a little more. And then it struck me that it deflating might not be a good thing but I kept reminding myself that my doctor said it might get better despite me getting pregnant and it might get worse even if I'm not pregnant and that there's basically no rhyme or reason to it. But of course, I can't help thinking that it's getting better BECAUSE I'm not pregnant. And today, my lower back is aching in just that special way that it does when AF is due and I feel like I want to curl up in a dark corner and cry myself to oblivion but at the same time, that feeling seems clouded and distant. Like I know that that's how I will be feeling in a few days but it hasn't quite reached me yet.
I hope you guys are doing better than I am today.
hugs
magda
I'm here but still sulking and feeling sorry for myself...
Krista
Good morning. Where is everybody?
Hi y'all
Sorry I have been so absent. Ive just been hiding in my house thinking Im not pregnant. And the PIO is making me cranky. The only good news is that Im not craving chocolate (like I usually do before AF).
Ive been readin your posts and
Samantha.. Sounds like maybe you have a shy one in there?.. Sounds promising.. Il keep my FX for you!
Magda.. How bout you? Any signs/symptoms? You going crazy too?
Kele.. I also had my ID stolen.. seems like a bunch od people really needed to buy plane tickets to Central America with my CCs. Hope they were kidnapped..Heehee
You feeling preggers? Any symptoms? I need something new to obsess over.
Juana.. Can I just tell you that as I sit here typing, I have my PIOS WEDGED UNDER MY FRIKKING BOOB (to get warm)!!!! Im like some horrible fertility idol. And heres the deal.. get ready for it........ it's coming.............. MINE ARE FAKE!!! And I hate them with a passion. Oh, I loved em when DH bought them for me 40 mother tucking pounds ago!!!! So technically I could have them unscrewed, but I wanted to wait until after a baby so then I could get a complete overhaul. Oh my.. if I could just go back 5 years.
Morgan.. Im real sorry about your beta. We don't have insurance that covers infertility either and it's so draining, emotionally and financially. I hope you win the lottery!!!
Amberlee.. Hows that bun in the oven? You prayin to the porcelain gods? Hope you dont have to and have an awsome pregnancy!
AFM.. Im a big stress ball.. almost not even leaving my house, obsessing over everything.
Jeez, just read my last post. To those of you who are preggo, please don't hate me for my rant. You all deserve to be pregnant, as does my friend. I am just having a moment/day.
Ugh. I am going to climb into a bottle of wine and shut up.