More faint positives - going in for beta today!

[scienceteacher79]

I am so nervous I am shaking. I am going in for my beta ths morning. I got three faint positives yesterday ($ tree and walmart brand) and two this morning ($ tree and EPT - EPT suckeddddd by the way!). Woke up at 5 this morning and could not go back to sleep! So, I just got up. DH still doesn't know - it is KILLING me not to tell him but he is unimpressed by faint lines, so I think I will have the nurse call him and tell him he is going to be a daddy (barring the beta comes out well). I know it is early and I am expectng a low number, but I am going to be a nervous wreck for the next few betas. :) After almost 4 years, a m/c, and thousands of dollars, I think we finally did it!

Clearblue digital still came out not pregnant so I am thinking I am under 30 with my beta. Another thing I noticed: the afternoon pee yesterday was only after 2-3 hours and have been the darkest yet. The FMU this morning made everythng very very faint compared to last night.

Symptoms for all who wanna know - boobies are killing me (not normal), cramps down low in the middle of my uterus, haven't had an appetite in over 24 hours, and haven't slept well in the last 3-4 nights.

Please keep your fingers crossed for me and pray for my baby. We have been through the ringer and want this more than anything. Hugs and SSBD to all!


Jen (AKA a nervous wreck!!)

[usuk]

i'm sorry too. like gigigi said, sperm met egg and now we know you can do this again. i do not like it when people tell me this either but it is more than many have. i watched the woman who got attacked by the chimpanzee on the today show. no hands, no face, no eyes. no lips. but her daughter is lovely to her and keeping her spirits up. you do the same today :)

[scienceteacher79]

Thank you girls for your concern and hugs :) I was feeling really bad yesterday but today I am a little better, but man, I am SICK! QUEASY QUEASY! Apparently my tummy didn't get the message that I am probably not preggo anymore. Ugh. I will go for blood tomorrow. A miracle is the only thing that is possible at this point... HUGS to all and SSBD to all TTC!

[Nikalicious]

I'm SO sorry :(.  I wish I had the words to take the pain away.

[Dreams4Bundle]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I've been there twice before and it is absolutely horrible to experience. I wish the best for you and pray that your time will come soon. Best of luck to you and your hubby.

[melon3]

Hi there,
             I am so sorry to hear your news. It must be totally gut wrenching to be given the carrot only for it to be taken away. It is not something I have experienced and hope that I never do. You so deserve to be a mama after all this time trying. I send you a huge hug and many positive vibes. Stay strong.

[Helen72]

I am so very sorry.  This totally STINKS!  I hope you find the strength to try again.

[amy0013]

Oh Jen...I am so sorry to hear this.  :(  You go back for another beta on Tuesday, right?  I'm thinking of you sweetie...I know how devastated you must feel.  :(

[GiGiGiGi]

Oh Jen, I am so sorry to hear this news.  I wish there was something to say that could help.

I have had this happen three months in a row, and I know how horrible it feels.  When you get that BFP, the next 20 years of your life flash before your eyes, and the planning, the hoping and the dreaming begins.  

My acupuncturist tells me that it is a good sign because this tells that most parts of the equation are in place.  The sperm is meeting the egg, etc, and the acu actually seems to find hope in this.  I'm not sure if I am hopeful or optimistic as he is because all I know is that it really does bite the proverbial "big one".  I too, feel like I cannot do this anymore.  A person can only take so much disappointment.

You know that you have a HUGE cheering section on here.  You also have a HUGE shoulder to cry on and a HUGE ear to vent to.   Whatever it is that you need, you got it, girl!

When is your next Dr appointment?

Sending tons of hugs,

gigi

[scienceteacher79]

Well, I do believe its over. I used FMU and peed on the dig and the $ tree. "Not pregnant" and couldnt make out a line on the $ tree. Funny thing is, if I had just waited til today I would have never known and just assumed I didn't get pregnant ths month.

Thank you for the cheering section. It meant the world to me. Needless to say, DH and I are devastated. I don't know how I will feel in a month, but right now I feel like I can not do this anymore. If anything changes I will let you know. Hugs and SSBD to all. I love you guys so much!

Love, Jen

[Nikalicious]

Hey there,
Just caught your upate and saw all these posts!  Sorry I was out of the loop! lol.  Just hang in there.  Not sure how many days DPO you are, but I agree with Princess that 9 sounds like a pretty good number.  I had such a FAINT line the day I was due for AF that I carried the stick around to all my friends to look at it b/c I thought I was losing my mind!  That was a Monday and the digi came up negative on Tuesday afternoon, but that Wednesday morning I got a BFP!  The digi is less sensitive than the regular HPT's.  Most digi's need a level of 40-50 to register a positive, so don't get dicouraged.  The best part is you ARE pregnant so enjoy it and if the digi doesn't register yet on Sunday, try Monday or Tuesday morning :). Congrats to you!

[misslollipop]

Well congratualtions you sooo derserve this.

[scienceteacher79]

Dreams4bundle- I haven't done IVF so I have no idea - someone will pop on and help you out - hang in there!

I am having some good cramps - not really AF cramps so I am just picturing my baby nuzzling in for the long haul :) I am trying to be very positive about all of this. I am googling success stories of low betas at the beginning and there are TONS of them (every once in a while a bad one sneaks in :( but praying and praying and praying! Hugs to all. I will keep you up to date. Thank you for the cheering! I need it!

Love - Jen

[Dreams4Bundle]

Hello everyone! I'm new to this, but I've been following your postings. I hope and pray for all of you that your dreams of having a baby come true. Did anyone experience low back pain following ET? I had my transfer on the 10th and starting yesterday I began having low back pain which is usually a sign of my PMS. I had the same thing last cycle. Just really stressing out about it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

[scienceteacher79]

I am feeling better about it all. Thank you for your story. I will pray for you and DH and your babies :) I am going out shopping to day just so I can try not to think about it all.


Thank you again. Hugs to you!

[hopefulmiranda]

Sweetie, congratulations, U ARE PREGNANT!!!.....enjoy the moment. I know it's hard because we reproductively challenged women have a tendency to over analize every single detail. And we just freak our selves out, for example ur HCG might be low because u implanted late and that's all but the problem is people like us concieving through fertility treatments go and test so early on, unlike women who have no problem getting pregnant wait for even weeks after they've missed their period so everything seem's peachy and right on track for them.
You have worked so hard to get here so just calm down, take care of yourself as if you were made out of glass and stop thinking negative thoughts.
I'm almost 9 weeks pregnant with twins, but unfortunately I've been bleeding a little and even passed a clot all the doctors i've seen told me I have a chrorionic hematoma sitting on top of one of the babies, I was so depressed, even went to the ER and everything looked fine. I decided that if God wants to take my baby or babies again i can't really do anything about it so I just pray and pray and I try to stay positive so I don't drive myself and DH nuts :)...

I really hope you feel better and start feeling happy :)

[scienceteacher79]

I will! Thanks girly! Well, just found out some more baby news! Those of you that know me know my (nasty) SIL is pregnant again when she doesn't even take care of the ones she has. Well, DH's other sister (the one I like) is pregnant! DH has known for a month but knew I had been so down that he ddn't want to tell me. She is the one that has had an ectopic that blew out one tube (2nd baby), 1st baby she lost around 20 weeks, and after many months of just having one tube is finally pregnant again! YAY!! She is due in May so she just got out of her first trimester :) So, DH's 2 sisters are all preggo around the same time and now his wife is preggo. Crazy :) Please Lord, I pray this baby stays with us. Please please please please. All I have done is pray these last 3 days. And all I wll continue to do is pray pray pray.

[ALT76]

THAT HAPPENED TO ME!!!  NOTHING tasted right!  One night I was CRAVING grilled chicken so bad (kinda odd), so I cooked up a bunch and when I ate it, I literally had to spit it out because it tasted rancid to me!  Dh said it was fine.  It wasn't old or anything - there was no reason for it to be rancid.  I couldn't eat any of it.  Things like that kept happening for the first couple of weeks - I'd make something I was all excited to eat and then it either wouldn't taste right or as soon as I started eating I wouldn't feel like eating anymore, no matter how hungry I was to begin with.  Fortunately it's pretty much warn off.  I think it's a good sign for you!

Oh and I've lost substantial weight since I got pregnant in just a little over a month.  I think it's partly from the weirdness with eating in the beginning, but now I'm eating just fine and still losing.  I think it's also from my PCOS now being put in check by the pregnancy hormones.

[amy0013]

No testing...are you nuts!?!?  Just teasin'...I understand why you want to wait until tomorrow.  :)  I'm still soooo excited for you Jen!  Enjoy your day and keep thinking positive!!!!  

[scienceteacher79]

Nope - no testing! I think I will try tomorrow with the digi. I just want to stay as positive as possible. I have had no appetitie for two days. No hunger and no urge to eat. When I start to eat it just doesnt taste right and I quit eating...it is so weird! I LOVE TO EAT!! Oh well :) I will take whatever quirks comes with the territory. :) Thank you for the love and prayers. Pray hard girls! For everyone :)

HUGS and SSBD  -- Jen :)

[bam1014]

BIG CONGRATS Jen!!!!   I agree with everyone else; you have to start somewhere!  I'd be screaming from the rooftops if I got a 9!

Best of luck and lots of hugs . . . can't wait until you get that pretty word on the digi :)

[texasangel343]

Jen - did you test again this morning?

[mommyin10]

Praying for big numbers on Tues! Stay positive :) You've got a great cheering section :) Congrats!!!

[luvkayln]

OMG, how did I miss all this?! Here's a BIG congrats to you!! I agree, your levels have to start out somewhere! :) Yayyy, you are pregannt!! I couldn't be more happier for you! I know we'll all be looking for your update on Tuesday, and I know you'll get awesome beta and progesterone numbers back! :)

[scienceteacher79]

I am on Crinone suppositories (progesterone) but still wanna know the number...so i had an idea...I am going to the local doctors care place and telling them (sunday i am going) that since my doc office is closed on sundays he wanted a repeat progesterone and beta done on sunday :) They took my progesterone at 7dpo last month with no questions asked. the only problem is it takes 2-5 days to get the results! But at least I would know the 2 day level sometime this week...wahahahaha (evil laugh)...

Love u guys. Keep praying please for everyone with BFP and are in the 2WW. God bless all of you!


Jen